What You See iS wHat You Get!!!

2007-01-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

Had been a Long Time never Blog.Back blogging again.Currently very busy...Yes,very..=/ Want to have a brand new life.School started and getting busy with work and assignments.So packed..Falling sick..Kept on and off...Kinda hate the feeling..

Working closing later...Yeah,with my kaki..Haha..Can play and have fun during work.But than there still some sucks around..Just being two sided and backstabber!Hai..Now as usaul doing my assignment and studying..Have been a long time never touch my books for revision.Felt tired and shagged..Need vitamin C..LOL!!!Got FLU!!ARGH!!!So uncomfortable..
Damn it!

Felt broke!!!Hahaha...Waiting for pay day..Yeah!Coming soon but still got a long way to go..Already have my plans and goal..Hmm,schedule so tight..Hai..so many attachment...oK,i dying already..

2006-12-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

Down..
Sad...
Heart Broken..
In Pain..
Dilemma..

In Love...
Alot...
Trust..
ONLY ME AND YOU..
ETC...

NOW...
.......... .......... ............. ..............

Messy Life..Tiring and alot..Need a good rest...Being busy and stiches the pain come back again..Busy with attachment,school and work...All that I have to concentrate..No time to fooling around..No more playing.
Feeling down and tired...Moodless..
Be independent and alone better..

Happy to have brother..Can feel it...Didnt except it turn up to be so united as one.Won let you down..Not only you to my precious one too..Yeah,so happy...meeting up my classmates... Hahaha..my old frends...Damn it going to be happening..Not going too miss the fun!

2006-12-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

That night was fun and happening.I really miss my NCC frends..They rox man!!!Have Feasta Night and damn it really turn me on!Hahaha..LOVE IT!Meet up BuL (my bro),Izzat (My boy),Azmi(my buddy) and Mard(my sis) at YCK..Waiting for Ameer and he damn LATE LAH!ARGH!Ok,we go off and left him..Numeries gathering and the newly 52th CLT Pass out.

This few days always bumb into SM..Haiz..Why?Why?Why?Saw in HQ and keep looking..People there some red eyes..Ya Ya..Eye candy..Ewww..Damn shocked and surprise we wore the same shirt!HAHAHA...What a JOKE!Ya,keeping looking duno why....What to look,just look lah as if will die.Anyway,I have fun with my frends and no disturben..=)

Feasta Night 2006 Picz..

HAHA...ET!!!!

YOU GUYS ROX!CLTS ROX!

BRO AND MY BOY..CUTE RITE..HAHA..

MY BELOVED JUNIORS

MY LONG LASTING FREND

FIONA AND LANGE

After the whole thing,we up to our plans..Yeah mission time..Whaha...Damn shagged and tired..All of you KO and dead!Hahaha..

2006-12-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

Today got exam..Forget the formula...Argh!!!Took 1hr plus to finish the paper..Brain stuck!Err..The paper 2hrplus..Rot there and sleep..Draw whatever paper that is left over..LOL..HP batt spoil!Gone crazy..Making me pissed off.School ended rushed home..

Waiting for BB to reply..No reply..Waiting for BB to ans the called never ans..Flood like help also no respond..Duno what my BB doing and Where is my BB now!Then BB off HP..=( Missing ISSEY...ISSEY WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today need to go work..Woking closing..My stiches start to feel pain again..Need to go hospital...If very pain need to stay for one nite and not going for work..Cant take MC no manager able to cover my shift...

2006-12-13T17:19:00.000+08:00

Yeah..YESTERDAY meet up BB..Hang out and watch movie.....BB as usual keep bully me..Like to see me suffer also..LoL...Hahaha..Bla Bla Bla..Bought a metal wallet that BB like..Is DAMN COOL lah..But too bad left last piece.FUCK SIA! Anyway,we have FUN!WHAHA..

Received a msg and called from my NCC ppl..Need to go for the 52th CLT POP to take my "Award"..LoL..Sad BB unable to come coz need to be home early.Sent BB home and rush down to Amoy Quee Camp.Miss the Passing out Parade but Prize presentation never miss..LoL..HAPPENING MAN!Meet all my NCC frends..The numeries and old bird like me..Hahaha..The best thing,those I duno they know me and keep screaming "S/CLT Lange!AHH!!That's is also known as Ma'am Farah!"Like what the hell..As if I'm dead and back to life..Hahaha..Is just that I MIA for time being.

Let me make it clear again...

Is not that I want to MIA or I lost interest in NCC..Ok,I know I had not being going down for training and etc.

Firstly,my condition is unlike the past..Not as active,fit and etc...I cant do intensive stuffs coz I met into bike accident and my keen cap is still weak..I'm still waiting to fully recover althought right now I able to walk.I unable to run and my sticthes is still hurts alot.So you see ya I'm not the Old Lange anymore oK..I'm sorry make you officers,Sir,Ma'am,plt mates,etc down and dissapoint you people.I wish this won happened to me but Is already happened.However,I still will try my best to serve the the unit and HQ..The respect what I wear the respect what I earn!

Hahaha...You sucker!Serve you rite!Like what I say NO one can beat me!I don care what you say coz no matter what my ego is fucking high and pick your standard oK...Fuck off you moron!

MY JUNIORS

My Brother and CLT Feeza!Haha..

BEST BUDDY!!!

MY AWARD!YEAH!!!

MY SIR AND I

MY BELOVED FATHER..RSM

MY NCC BOY!SO PROUD OF HIM!CONGRATE YA BE GOT BEST SYNDICATE!

2006-12-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

YOU BITCH,DOXY SLUG!YOU TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING!EVERYTHING I GAVE TO YOU,YOU TOOK IT FOR GRANTED!YOU TREAT US LIKE PIECE OF SHIT!

Hey you doxy, no you are not only a doxy but also a bitch and not forgeting a slut!! call yourself my sister, call yourself my friend but you are just nothing to me anymore. You just took everything from me, you just know how take, take and take but you don't know how to give back and the worse thing is you don't know how to fuck appreciate it. You are not worthy of all these treatment I have been given to you. I treated you more than a friend and treated you like my own. But what you did to me! What did you gave me in return! You are not worthy to call a human being. You are just fucking cruel. I work so hard, and yet you take it all for granted.

What!! You think I don't have any fucking feelings! I'm a human, not like you an animal living in the mortal of a human. You made me suffer!! Yeah!! You fucking happy about it! I will no longer let you do these to me! I can't belive myself, that you never keep your own words and yet lie and betray to your ownself. Your words were clear, when you told me you don't ever and never will sign on as a Clt and still you told me off when I sign on. But now see, lets face reality, you sign on as as Clt just because your boyfriend is signing on too. What the Fuck!! Let's face it, you treat me like a spare tyer.

You dolled with me, my money, my feelings and my everyhting. You only called me when you needed me. I was always there for you, but was you there?! No you were not, you were most of the time busy for yourself. You torture me alive! You are fucking cruel!

I hate you!! I hate you!! I fucking hate you!! Hope you die and rot in hell, be condemned there forever!!

You messed with the wrong fella, I will have my revenage on you. Even if I die before I finish my job with you, my soul and spirit will haunt you till the day you are condemn in hell. Mark my words, and remember my name cause you will be screaming it later!!

2006-12-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

Fucking shagged!Work opening at sunplaza than got school attachment..Damn felt so lazy to go for school.. Slack in my bed and dragged myself off from the bed..Got evening lesson...ARGH!!!Sian...Lesson ended.Wait for my sister very long pick me up!Then hang out with my brother,turtle and gangs..Have supper at makan sutra...LADIES NITE!But I'm too tired and furthermore have to go over grandparents hse to celebrate my twin sister birthday..

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED TWINS SISTER!!!

Sorry unable to going you in the evening coz very busy.

Err..have devil intention!Hahaha...illegal gathering and evryone is looking at us..LoL...My Bro and I saw a PDA..Brand new PBA wanted to cope it..Hahaha!The owner was drunk but than we nv take coz over intention was not too steal jz too make the owner suspend!HAHAHA!Guess people aroud us suspect and look at us so suspecious..But is nuthing!

Help my bro take a gal HP number!HAHAHA!Happy sia..Can see a big smile on the face..BUT the gal shocked me..Coz she know me and recognise me coz of my HAIR!Err..duno how she Know me sia..She is my frend,frend..My bro more stunned and happier of coz..LoL..Anyway,jz wishing both of them the best in progressing...Hahaha..

2006-12-07T15:45:00.000+08:00

Working later at 5pm...Hopefully get to work at my own baby outlet...Sian leh always work at the main outlet..So sux!Woke up at 7am today...Got school at 8am...So tired and sleeply..Eyes cant open...Dragged myself too school..Falling asleep in the class..Hahaha...Take down notes and listen to lecture...Bla Bla Bla...Sian..Log off school at 12plus..Then went home straight..

Want to sleep But cant sleep..House too noises and cant sleep at all...Cant stand it with the dust and etc..Nose feel like dropping off..Throat so dry and pain...So do some revision and do my notes...Then continue helping BB do her design..

Hmm...feel like staying in my bed and don want to go to work...But cant ah..Haiz....SO BORING!!!I'M BORED!

2006-12-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Working today...My hse in the mess and dusty....Renovation....Sian...My house so pathetic...
Have to go down and bath or used temporary toilet...OMG!Hate it!Sooo messy and dust...y i cant stand it...Don feel like going home and stay here for time being...Need somewhere comfortable and better environment...Haiz..

Damn...got attachment and alot of upcoming assignment...No mood...LoL....Kinda busy this days...Sian..got to go..Damn tired and shagged after ..... Hahahaha...

2006-12-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

Long time never meet up my ncc frends..Yeah,when for ncc bbq at sembawang park..Have fun and it was great!Enjoy the bbq and out at sea...Kinda sad coz most of them unable to turn up due to 52th CLT Course...Overall it was happening...

Btw,thnx for turning up guys.Thnx for your support.Hope to keep in touch and see you guys ard...Didnt went home...Tonn the whole nite and went over mard hse...All of us we damn shagged and tired....Bath than we played scramble at 5am...Hahaha...After racakee we damn shagged lah...Cant take it playing scramble all of us KO....

When home the nxt day...And working 6pm to closing...AHH!!!!!Tired sia...Woke up at 5.30pm..Lucky didnt late for work but than not in the mood to work at all...Haiz..

Picz took during ncc bbq...

SPOOKY

HOMELESS

Bulding sand castle

My kaki

FSL

2006-11-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

Just reached home from work...Now rushing doing my homework and notes..ARGH!!!Still got alot more to go and haven fns...Later need to go for lesson...Damn!oK,got another 20pages to go more...=/ To be continue...

2006-11-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

Shagged!Tired!Dieing!Pain!ARGH TOO MANY TO LIST OUT!Working at Sunplaza today. Attached to that outlet...Happy life working there.Really got peace but very boring..Today no school...Yeah!~ Log off work went down city hall meet up mardiana..Waiting for the rest of my ncc peers and juniors for the collection of bbq money..None turn up..LoL...not pissed or angry coz used to it lor..Always cock up one so don really bother..

My 5month today but MY JOY not in S'pore...In Bangkok!So never celebrate..When down Orchard to meet up my lecturer first with my classmates...Then meet my mum and accompany her shop.Very tired and weak...Need my bed and want to KO also but mum still busy shopping. Eyes cant take it leh..Sleep walk lor..HAHAHA!!!MY JOY Coming back Wed nite lor..=) Reached home so late..No time to do my homework just do abit leh...DIE!!!Tml still need to go work than got sch...Shit man!Need to fns up my homework and notes before report to shool!

2006-11-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

YES!!!JUST CAME BACK!!!Went Indonesia holiday with my family and cousins..3days 2nites...oKlah,have fun but tiring..Came back in the Monday evening and didnt went for school...But than rushed for my evening module which is very important..Damn tired and shagged!!!Felt like dozing off in the class..But than I felt so smart and genius coz I able to ans all the ques and able to do it which made my lecturer and classmates stunned.HAHAHA!!!

Very sad coz MY JOY flight off to Bangkok in the afternoon and I came back S'pore in the evening.So never get a chance to meet or talk too..5 days straight never meet..My JOY coming back on wed nite...=)

1day-->When Zoo and shopping.
Nite--> My cousins and I went pub chilled and play pool..The rest Karaoke.

2day-->When beach and shopping
Nite-->Bowling

3day-->Go factory
Evening-->Home sweet Home

...LANGE...

MY COUSIN AND I

FSL

2006-11-24T03:46:00.000+08:00

Yawn...Everyone is sleeping and I still awake..Turning to 4am soon I still doing my project and school work..=/ Listening to cassie-me and you,take the lead and bla bla suddenly made me high and feel like dancing on the dance floor..LoL...too bad my house no dancefloor..Maybe my futher house build a dancefloor..HAHAHA!!!

Today went school at 8am..So lazy to wake up but no choice have to go school...End at 12pm..Break for 2hrs..Suppose to report to sch back at 2pm for the next module but I didnt go..Hehehe..Too tired and ......... Last for work again coz have to go back school last min take my folio..GREAT!My lectutrer catch me and nagged for not turning up lesson at 2pm..Ya,nagged so long till i late for work.Rush too work..Ended work at 11pm..Felt tired during work but once reached home not tired.LoL...Help my sister buy food at mac...I'm starving to death lah!So hungry..Bumped into my outside friends.. Chat and bye..Too tired to hang out with them..

My god!Assignment getting load!Project alot!Attachment coming already!Ah...so fast...My brain cant think anymore...Eyes keep closing and not focusing anymore...Need my bed already... Yawn!

2006-11-22T21:25:00.001+08:00

Half dead!=/ Reached home attacked my bed...Heaven!Hahaha..Working opening and lucky unlike ytd...Ytd really happening and die sia..Suppose to do project today wif my classmates but they got lesson so hang out at Secret Recepit to have our dinner..Then go home lor...

Feel like sleeping and don want to wake up but cant!Have to do my project and assignment...
As usual now doing my assignment and school work...Guess have to start to burn mid nite oil...
=( Yeah!!!My result is out!!!Hahaha...so excited and happy sia..Coz i passed!!!Yes,top student again...Yessa!!!=D Wahlao...Need to do alot of stuffs sia...Argh!Bad moment..Pity..

My parents this few days behave very weird..Duno what they are up too...or maybe is me the one weird?Duno leh very strange feeling I have..Maybe I think too much lah coz i rarely spend time and see them..Well hope everytime goes smoothly and fine..

2006-11-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

Tiring day...Hai,late for my lecture again...I really testing my lecturer patient and getting to the nerve already..Not i never manage my time well..Is always my work give problem and gave me trouble..Hungry,sleepy and alot lah...Cant focus and concentrate...Really need my bed..LoL..So never go for Lecture..Not that important.Just a 3hr lecture..

When down Far East meet up Cat and have dinner with her...Hang out and suppose to walk in town..Then end up just have dinner than we went home..Damn shagged and tiring!Bumb into my group of Lesbo frends...LoL,going MOS party..What the hell...Under age party no kick lah.. Hahaha..Nah,nv join them coz my members and kaki oso nv go...So don want to go.. Furthermore,not in the mood to club or pub...Jz want to jam..LoL...Any jamming section guys!?

Words,words,words....
Action?
Acting..Challenging..
Camouflage/Blend??Haiz..
Time = character, true..
mission...

'I don need anyone better don wan anyone beter. I only wan u.. no one can be like you.. no one can treat me like how u treat me. i jus wan u.'
Time: 2028hrs
Date:21/11/2006

2006-11-19T13:03:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11am!!!Still felt so tired and sleeping sia...I felt so different in myself..I duno lah..Just don feel like living and exist anymore...Later still got work..Life getting busy and I kinda in the mess..With so many stuffs...

Now I'm stuck with my assignment and project..Still struggling with it and in this kind of situation which is so sucky!Then Sky called..Don feel like talking but than Sky really cheer me up..Then conference with turtle,Peter and Kiddy..They busy toking I there so quiet and busying doing my assignment..Hahaha..Sky don let me up down so jz accompany them..Turtle was sick!Guess was hangover abt last nite..Hahaha..Sorry didnt going u and your gang..Some other day ya..

I'm alone at home!Hahaha...so peace and heaven.Waiting for the moment to come and I will say GoodBye to everyone..And i meant it..Feeling so restless duno why...Half dead like that...There is more to face thur..Orite,hope at work no one piss me off..Not even the customer..Argh.. Later,maybe Nick and Wan coming down my plc..See got time anot coz they end work late.

2006-11-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

Yessa!!!OFF DAY TODAY!!!Yeah!~ Whole day slack on my bed and keep sleeping...Still feeling tired and shagged!Duno why suddenly I woke up at 10plus...Felt tired and sleeply but cant sleep..Waste my whole day by slacking in the bed...

Wah..Today I fully booked actually...My poly frends and outside frends jio me out but already got plans.Suppose to meet my Ncc juniors at town..Hang out and discuss camp stuffs with them..End up planned was cancelled.Then just nice Sky called me asked me go Vivo city with gang..But I was too lazy and tired so nv go..Then Turtle asked me want to go momo with their gang.I like Err..I'm damn tired lah and don feel like going anywhere so I nv go..LOL..Oh...52th CLT Course coming sia...3weeks in camp!!!Hahaha...Hell man but fun..Gd luck and all the best to the CDTs ya..=) CLT to be...

For so long already and today received letter On Goverment Service...Haiz,duno when need to book in camp and training at Sahara Dessert..!Dessert trekking!But I went Hong Kong, Australia,London and India..If go have to dye my hair back...Haiz..Ma fan!Need to go and hit the gym already...Need to built my muscles back..Duno can go anot coz got school and this semester very important cant punk ard..Then alot of projects and assignment too..

Ah...I feel so shagged...MY GOD!Want to attack my bed lor...NITE WORLD!

2006-11-16T11:30:00.000+08:00

FUCK! I'M PISSED. YOU are so GOOD in acting! Betrayers! WTF. You think i can't see through your innocent and sweet-loving act that you are just a nobody except a whore waiting to be fucked by thousands of ah-peks?! You are worthless...I dun think your stead can stand you lorrhs. What more your frens. If you are really true to both your stead and frens, would people talk bad about you?

How I wish that you'd be killed in a tragic car accident that you can't even talk and move anymore. I want you to feel how i felt. u make everybody think that you are a goddess. But please, you are totally the opposite, a whore! I'm sorry if i'm harsh. I won't say out who u are. but pls, if anyone of u read this post and think you are the one, so be it. If not, you won't feel so ~terasa~. All the best fuckin!

Cheap slut. May u enjoy the company of all those bastards wanting u just because of your figure and youth. Nothing else. Betray me and your friends just to satisfy your own need. How selfish can u get??? Be more sensible. You are old enuff to think. I hope. in life, there is ups-&-downs. I pity your stead. Working a lot to support u but there are all in vain.

Can your stead like open the eyes and look that in front of him is just a slut? Those voices to pretend that you are so devoted and loving. This is getting ridiculous. I know you longer than i should. I stood up with your attitude more than anyone ever could. so, fuck off!!!

Have you ever wondered that ppl are just making use of you, bitch? You are so adorable that everyone only wanted a taste of you . Your a flirt. Cheap flirt. Any guy could have won you over. Hahahah! I don't care. At least I got rid of you sooner than I could. I'm lucky to have realised all that.

2006-11-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!Fuck!Slice my hand against the cake fridge door during work!!!!Bloody Tuesday...Blood keep dripping non-stop till all over the floor got my blood...Loss bleed..In pain.Really pain and my face till pale..Haiz...Short handed of staffs..Argh!Make me more pissed off...As usual customers so in patient!Feel like poison them!Very angry and i almost loss my patient..Lucky I still can control and smile smile..But inside my heart keep cursing!Pity my staffs kena from me but awhile only after that I'm oK..LoL,mood swing I guess..Hahaha..Then my OM made me angry and no mood to work at all..Anyhow throw his temper and so rude..Bastard!He can Fuck off too!!Feel great when he left!Yeah!~

AHH!!!My hp batt spoil...Need to replace a never one soon but duno when yet..Today my baby got paper...Sian leh..Pity sia see my baby..Haiz,so many probs..Then I always cant be there coz I feel that I very far and busy...But I can still be there just that not on the time..Then my baby so lonely and stress up..Just hope that life is fair but is always unfair....Ok,Got to catch up with my projects...LoL..

2006-11-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

Still in my lab..Doing my project and just blog..Log off school at 9.30pm..Ah..!!!Both hp low batt!!!Not my luck for today i guess..Hai,so torturing..Working just now..Then have some quarrls with my baby..Rushing to school just now...Lucky not late for school if not get a warning letter!!!=/ Shit!Left my locker key in my drawer!Great,cant open my locker and take my stuffs lah...Go find the mantaince to help me take my project stuffs and textbook..LoL,die die must have the materials if not can forget about graduatee..Don want to waste my time and feel regret.

Suppose to meet my poly frends but I kinda late lah so they go ahead first..Sorry ya guys.. Lesson very chim ah today but as usual i able to understand.LoL...Half way having lesson,was called out by my course manager..So report to office..Haiz,don sound good and is not good lah..Walao..2hrs45min in the office waste my time and miss my lesson...Argh!Disturb my lesson!Cant fully pay atttention...

Fuck!I still struggling finding the bloody software...Asked around already still cant get it..Asked my sch office said shool of IT is using and all that stupid craps!Damn it!TELL ME HOW AM I GOING TO DO IT! I cant affect to fail this module and assignment..Die die still have to get the software...AHHHH!!!HELP ME!!!I GOING MAD AND STRESS!!!!!!!!

2006-11-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday when out with my baby to celebrate my birthday...=) We spent time and all that...When to marina square and walk walk..Then went Suntec city...Have lunch at Fish and Co..LoL....The plc is used to work before....Hahaha!Then took a taxi and sent my baby home...LoL...In the taxi ....

Rain heavily...Sia..Wet weather..So ewww to walk in a wet..Especially when wear so nice ..My god cant stand it...Reached home damn tired!Don feel like going out with my family...Argh!No choice have too coz my birthday and my cousinS + grandparents is there..Wah,bump into my outside frends...Yeah!Surprised to see them lah...Long time nv hang out with them bah..Aww,so sweet...My mummy bought an ice cream cake for me!!!

Today woke up damn earlier!5.40am for work...Argh!Suppose to start at 9am-3pm at J8K but change of schedule...Sian..Hate to working opening at the main outlet!So sucky....In the morning I always half dead!Not in the mood one like just what to be alone aft awhile will oK already..Damn busy today..Everday like busy lor....Hahaha!WoW!Fisrt time I scold my staffs.. LoL..Not really scold lah just be more firmed that all..Hahaha..Shagged Shagged Shagged!!!Suppose to meet my frend today do project but my frend not free so go home...

Ahh!!!Damn tired......LoL...

2006-11-11T10:49:00.000+08:00

ArgH!!!!!!!!!!Noisy I cant sleep!!!!The construction noises wake me up!!!Argh.....I want to sleep...
oK...today rot at home...Want to study..Don feel and don have the mood for everything...Very sian...I very pissed right now with the noises and my probs...

I feel like seouless..Haiz...Body still in pain..Badly pain..Still sick haven recover.Keep on and off...Feel weak..Duno lah just die better...

Ah...need to do assignment but don have the software...Die!!!!Help me...=\ Don want to play already ah...Want to focus and concentrate my stuffs...

2006-11-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

My senses told me and I knew it.I really cant show it out or react it..That's is just me..Yes,I have GREAT DAY during my 19th birthday..Fuck Off! Is just meaningless..Every year is also like that might as well I don exist!Duno what you want...I just feel that I'm a toy.I want to cry till I cant cry anymore and cant feel...

I'm not dumb,stupid,fool,dumbo or etc...You may think I am..Fine!I duno what type of person you ah...Haiz...very disappointed in you...This is what I got?Well,Thank alot ya..Nuthing much for me to say already..Maybe you still haven learn your lesson yet..Guess just wait for the time.Time will prove everything.

When city hall celebrate my 19th birthday with the L5-1..Yeah..!!!Long time never see and hang out with them..Glad to see them again...Have dinner at seoul garden..Then walk walk around city hall..Anyway,Thank guys for the outting..=)

2006-11-10T18:35:00.000+08:00

BB msg woked me up...My alarm I guess?LoL..Get ready and prepared...Go over BB plc..Helping her to design" her room wall..Still cracking my head for more designs..AHH!!!But she like the design..=) Help her think and draw but painting I'm not going to do i guess..Hahaha...My painting sux!

Wall clock shows 1545hr...And it fly so freaking fast and now it shows 1800hrs..Damn shagged and tired..Feel the island of temptation...Went home at 1900hrs after volcano eruption...

When Cineleisure meet my my beloved Brother,turtle.With my other frends..Played pool with them but I'm too shagged and tired to play so jz played one game..Sister at forum..LoL..Lazy to walk over.So just wait for them to come over cineleisure and pick me up!Then haven supper at LJS..

When grandma hse again..Grandparents so happy to see me keep coming...=) My baby boy cousin was playing soccer...Too active and excited kick my sticked.FUCK!That was my reaction..At first not pain than slowly the effect fucking pain and the stiches starts to bleed and tear.Went Tan Tock Seng Hospital..Stay 1 nite there..

Suppose to work opening but didnt went to work coz in hospital and in pain...Discharge from hospital at 8plus.When home sleep and discover my hp left at grandma hse..Damn when over there to take my hp and slack whole day at home..

2006-11-06T19:05:00.000+08:00

I'M SICK!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!GOT FLU AND SORE THROAT!!!!SICK WITH ASSIGNMENT AND WORK!!!!NOT ENOUGH REST!!!!OK,TIRED SIA...NEVER GO SCHOOL TODAY COZ BODY VERY WEAK AND NOT FEELING WELL..MISS MY LESSON AGAIN.HAIZ...

ANYONE HAVE MICROSOFT PROJECT 2003???CAN PLEASE PLEASE LEND ME FOR MY ASSIGNMENT AND THE DEADLINE IS SOON!!!YET STILL HAVEN DO YET!!!ARGH!!!

LOVE MY BABY ALOT... XD

BABY,WHERE ARE YOU.....

HAPPY BELATED BIRHTDAY DADDY!LOVE YOU!=D

2006-10-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

LOVE YOU BABY! =D

-=...Love you Muackz...=-

Ok,Long time never blog again..Sorry...=/ Kinda busy with so many things and when want to blog forget..-_-" No worries I will blog when my schedule is balance..School started not long ago. Busy with work and sch..Then got assignments..DAMN IT!!!AlLOT sia!What the hell...Now busying finishing up my assignment and doing some revise..So later part can relax..LoL,Always relax sia me..

This year sch schedule not that tight but kinda busy...As usual got alot of projects!Assignment and attachment!Just need to concentrate on this..

Sorry baby I always busy and all that..I will manage my time and do some adjustment with it..I will do it.No worries I will be there for you..Really love you alot baby...Gagaga..Love. Care. Concern. Last till eternity...Baby dumbo! XD

2006-10-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

Heart. Broken. Down. Need Time. Love. Happy. Joy. Lange. Sweetheart. Concern. Us. Com
Will Love You Till The End.

2006-10-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

Finally back blogging...Hmm,sorry guys never update my blog coz busy and .... Too many things to update..But don feel like update..Just list out what I can remember bah..My back is badly pain...I need someone to massage for me...Pain!!!=/ Everyday busy..Damn it!!!Got assignment to do leh...Really not in the mood to do sia..But still have to do...Is damn alot!!!Anyone want to help me???LoL..

Yesterday went out with the L5-1...Hahaha..coz Aini not there so is L4..oK,I was late as usual..Actually I'm not late just that they too early..Hahaha!!!!Nah,body felt very tired and sleeply..Woke up at 6.20pm..Then rush down to far east to meet them at cahaya..Break fast together...Then we walked to Lucky Plaza than Heeren..Then went to Cine to take NeoPrint... Err,my god sound so gay and unlike me lah taking NeoPrint..Hahaha...Very tired sia..Cant take it anymore than went home already...I need my bed and pillowsss!!!

Happy?Sad?Hmm...duno lah...Too sad already..Just feel unlike myself..Hope to be orite soon but duno wheN is that...My feeling is so deeply in love and in pain..Too love you..Very Love you and I still love you very much..So Love you till I .... Feel so weak at times and my depression kind off coming back..I being keep things to myself and I know alot of things or even can say everything... End up I hurt myself and the pain is too deep till i cried badly..What's wrong with me..Just hate myself!Argh!!!Don feel like saying anymore..My keyboard giving me attitude!!!

2006-10-07T12:37:00.000+08:00

Just recovered from gastric flu!Err..the feeling is so horrible and i hate it..This few days being busy with work...Running both store main outlet and kiosk..Siao...Now back pain..=/ Tot become manager can relax and be the boss..Hahaha..But than so stress and busy sia..My OM have high exceptation on me and I'm his Baby..Omg! I cant let him down and I will do the best I can..

I may be playful and looked kiddy during work but than I know where I stand and choose my right attitude.Don tell me what to do as I know myself very well...I have my ways and style how I carry out/run the shift...Yes,I know I'm the youngest and just a PSM..So doesnt mean can push me around...If I say yes,i mean it and i will do it...If i say no,mean no and die die also i won do it.Dont think can just change me like that...If i rite,i will fight for my rite and if i'm wrong,i will shut my gap and learn frm my mistake!Simple!No need to example or what...Just save your breath.

School School School...Not tired of school just that tired of myself...Duno how to example and descripe the feeling...Hai...got project to do...=( Boring!!! Not in the mood to do leh still in holiday mood..But than in the mood to go school and study...

Yeah..today off day!=) Heaven...Going to stay at home the whole day and study...!!!Really study..Not joking...I want to study lah..Always so busy with work,problems lah and bla bla bla...Feed up sia! Serious...I enough ah with all the craps and nonsense..Need to manage my time well,cope with my stuffs and have to juggle with it...No matter how busy or what..my heart there is always you and you are always in my mind..I duno whether you see it in that way but i telling you now I LOVE YOU more than others do..

2006-09-28T15:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 3mth Anniversary Darling

Love you and missing you..XD

Noise pollution!!!My house under renovation lah..Then the drilling and pilling disturb from my sleep..Hp keep ringing and msg keep beeping..So annoying!!! Cant sleep soundly..Argh!!!Cant get through me called my house!!!Basket!Fucking piss off leh...I sleeping and I unplug my house line fone and continue my sleeping till 1pm..LoL..

Great!Ytd my hp dropped two times!!!And is not i dropped it lor..Hai,Khai dopped it and my casing crack..Then Zak dropped it and the casing is fucking loss..Want to scold also no used lor...So just smile and pretend nuthing happened..In my heart all the vulgar appeared..Hahaha!My frends sim card stuck in my laptop..Hai..What the hell..Gone case already lah..Guess is not my lucky day..

Darling can don mia or disappared..Please...Please come back..Don just disappared like that.....................

Kay..where are you!!!Hahaha...Simple where is everybody...Kay!!!

Back from work..Checking my E-learning..Err..stupid hacker..And the hacker is my frend.. Haha..bloody hell..Moon cake season...Busy looking at moon cake during my shift..LoL,told my staffs to take care the store..Yum!Yum! Walk around and admire at the mooncake..I LOVE MOONCAKE coz ............. My fav is GreenTea. Whahaha...

Told my staff,"Hai...so many moon cake leh...want to eat?Want?I go buy?LoL..How wonderful if someone buy for me...Sure i very happy and won forget that person..I guess I fall for mooncake..Hahaha!"My staff just looked at me and say "you are sick"..What the hell..End up also eat lor...-_-" Hahaha..

2006-09-25T22:29:00.001+08:00

I'm felt so tired,shagged and Sleeply but than I woke up at 11.40am..Received msg frm my baby..LoL..I still pigging in my dream land.Then when called my baby pigging..So cute rite..So poor thing my baby tired..Well,Cant sleep that well too..I just wish I in my own world but is impossible...I accept who you are and the way you are too..Love you..

Suppose to hang out with my frends at esplanade at 5pm..But than last min changes so cancel the plan..Furthermore I felt very lazy and tired to get out off my bed...I was busy chatting with my baby till I fall asleep on the fone and baby woke me up..Today is the last time I chat with my baby...Hai..I had nothing much to say already..

Anyway,I wishing my baby all the best and take good care ya..As for me as usual i will be busy with my stuffs...Tml hv my modelling section..Looking forward it..Hahaha..School starting already...Gosh!!!Just promoted to be a manager...Can feel the pressure and burden..Always get lecture by my OM..Guess is good for me..I feel that I'm so a busy woman..Hahaha...But I like it..=)

Hmm...will be seeing the group of youngest again outside coffee bean when I work..Guess they always hang out there when I work..Eyecandy..=/

2006-09-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up damn early felt so weak,pain and tired...Dragged my whole body off from my bed.. Yawn!Today my final shift cert...No feeling and I wasnt prepared yet..The feeling like numb and duno how to describe...Great!Reached outlet at 6.30am than discovered the outlet key is MISSING!!!Fuck leh...I panic like siao..Fully awake also..Quickly go and sreach for my key like mad..Damn it!Cant rmb and recall where I placed it...Give up called my OM and juz seat outside the shuttle like beggar..Hai,every morning already i screw up!Suppose come early to prepare for my shift cert end up sitting down like a beggar..

Guess was my unlucky day..The outlet blackout and the toaster was spoil..Damn it!!When Pamela came,already got customer complain..Really complain leh..Wahlao...her face black and so difficult to handle.Fuck lah..I also like no mood than my final shift cert..But than I able to handle it..I was happy coz I able to cheer the customer and make her smile sincerely too..Her smile really make my day somehow..In the beginning the shift was smoothly run than in the aftnoon bloody screw up and I really loss motivation and encouragment..Like no hope to pass already..

Supposed to end my shift at 3pm..But than end 8pm coz of my final shift cert..I felt so bad coz suppose to meet one of the model at 3.15pm lah coz my another job interview..Hmm,make them wait so long till 6pm and they left..Hai..So weird,a group of youngsters hang outside coffee bean was looking at me and keep observing me..Then when my OM and Pamela was talking to me,a gal came to me and approached for my number..Err...Hahaha..

Yeah...I pass my final shift cert..But I not really happy and satisfied with my score..Somehow I noe I can do better than that just that I have no confident..Is not i no confident just that I want to handle it by myself and when my bosses is around I like a follower not a leader..I want my bosses not to be around so I'm the boss!!!LoL..Yean,I'm a manager already..Weee..

2006-09-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SHARON

Firstly would like to wish My dearest sharon happy belated 18 birthday...Her birthday is on 16/9 but than I blog in so late lah..Hahaha,at last ya can watch M18 and do alot of this.. Hehehe..can don need used fake ID already to enter clubbing Lor..Hahaha..Love you dear..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUKHBIR!!!

Yeah today is Sukhbir Birthday!!!Hope we able to hang out and spend time together..Very miss you too...Miss the fun man..Anyway, thnx for be there for me..Do well for your studies ya..All the best with your game..=)

Tiring day...Woke up damn early report to work..As usual being bully by them...Just coz I'm the youngest asst manager..YZ,kept disturb me by showing his greenish stupid childish pen lah with a middle finger..He kept making me irritated by following where i go and he asked me what to try finger fucking!Hahaha..my god horny guy!He so cute lah..But than sad ah i didnt turn On..Try harder nxt time ya..What the hell trying to be cheeky with me sia..Purposely bring his cheek near my lips and except me to give him a KISS!!!Hahaha..Horny bastard!Duno why he so high..I used to hate him and find he irritating but than he is a nice and fun guy lah..Guess need to understand someone attitude slowly and better.. Damn sick,flu and headache..Gastric give attitude..Suppose to have my Higher Dip Orientation today..Then bloody hell it was on Fri...Waste my bloody time go lah...Make me rush and disturb from my sleep...Didnt go home. Went outside Raffles City and chilled around there with my frends..

I don wish to loss or lost someone I deeply fall and love in my heart.I really love you alot..I cant leave without you...I can feel the pain and hurt in me..But I have to be strong..Lange please stop crying..Don cry anymore..Fuck my eyes is fucking swallon!Damn It!Have to wear shade out already..I know I did a mistake..Which is a silly and foolish thing till we turn up like this..I know what happened behind my back but I don wish to talk or if can I just wish I meet into another bike accident and this time i loss my memory..I really love you alot...No matter how you treat me,I will still continue treasure and cherish you..I will still be there for you baby..Just remember this I want the best from you...Missing you and Love you deeply..Hug and Kisses..

2006-09-10T15:21:00.000+08:00

Finally,back blogging...Being kinda busy...Miss my ncc camp..Miss my ncc frends..Miss my ncc juniors..Miss scolding and screw the cadets ass..WTF!Haha..Didnt went for SSC,Sea Competition and other camps...Wondering which unit is the champion for this year..Hopefully not PHS..LoL..WTH..Maybe next upcoming camp I'm going..Hopefully spray my hair first before in my uniform..

Didnt go for NCC Dinner yesterday...Just don feel like going..Furthermore,busy with work and my shift cert test is coming soon...Must pass this test and i got the full authority!!!Yeah... Finally, Exam is over!!!Hooray...Holiday!Holiday!Holiday!Results coming out soon i guess...Scared?Nah.. Nervous?Nah...Excited?WTH..Happy?WTF..Guess none of the above feeling..

Hope to meet you guys again...Wish we can spend time like last time..the fun and craziness we used to have..Later working....Sian leh...I want to hang out and have fun..Haiz...tired ah..I need a maid rite now!!!

2006-09-07T18:16:00.001+08:00

HI IM JOY AND FSL IS NOW AT MY HOUSE TRYING TO...................

2006-09-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up early coz baby coming over my house...=D Yeah..Father was at home but than he didnt bother us..So we do our stuffs..LoL..Miss the way you hug me,kiss me and your smell.. Love you..Just missing you right Now!

When town and spend time together.Hahaha...keep disturbing my baby with "parking slot".. Whaha..WTH..Anyway,dear dear Like it,I happy..;p The feeling is there...LoL..When Heeren 77th street to get my stuffs and meet my frend..Then went to my shopping mall -->Pacific Plaza
When Far East to have our dinner...Bump into Sharon's Ex-gf..Too bad she didnt see me..Then bump into Paul and Angel.Again they never see us..Hahaha..

oK..having a difficult moment when eating coz have to remove taugay in my food..Eww..taugay so gross and yucks!Then baby busy taking photo...Hahaha..So cute lah!Feed me!Feed me!Feed me!LoL..Send my baby home..Hehehe..."parking slot" again..I start to like and addicted to Spear Mint Mentos.Remind me of my darling..Anyway,We really have fun and enjoy your day of course! XD

The sweetest of your kiss melts me
The way you touch and hug me,wet me
Love you darling!

2006-09-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

It was being a long time didnt hang out with my NCC Family..Yeah!Finally there is an outting organise by Taufiq..Hahaha!!!We went Tanjong Pagar Railway Seafood to have your dinner and gathering there..Meet them at Tanjong Pagar Mrt Station..Benjamin,Taufiq,Azierl,Sukhbir, Tasha,Priscilla and Syahir was there.. Yum yum!!1The food was great man!!!Love it sia..As usual I enjoy my food..LoL.. WTH..

Well..Kinda sad coz i expect alot and the family to come..Is like all of us a drifting apart and our bonding decreasing..Sad to hear that..Anyway,glad and happy to see a few of them able to make it.

Oh ya..Taufiq!!!You still owe me the pictures Ok...don run away hor...Hahaha..

Happy NCC Friends..=) Love you guys and take happy ya..

2006-08-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

Fucking busy...So boring..Schedule getting busy..Need to cope with my stuffs..Just hope I able to cope and doing fine with it.Now half way going thur with my exam...Still need to study and go sch..Then alot of upcoming projects and attachment too..Hmm..Faster finish my exam and no need to handle so many burden Lor..

When out with my family today..Feel so odd and outcast when I was outting with my family..Everyone got partner sia..I solo and alone..Sian...Kinda sad and a worst my baby unable to join my family for lunch today..But nvm I understand my baby need to study..Guess my mum is excited and eager to meet my stead sia..-_-" LoL..Keep asking me and alot of ques sia..Then for my dad and sis suddenly out of the blue asked me weird ques and of coz i'm shocked but just act normal..Hahaha..Maybe,my parents start to understand me and accept who am I..Guess so.Espically my mummy..=)

Need to enrol my driving license back...Taking my PDL soon..but still have to fns my FTT first..Sian need to open book again and study..Fuck it lah!Just hate to read and study..Just not in the mood ah..

I Love fri and sat!
Fucking Love it!
Love you baby!

2006-08-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

Got my new room and privacy..Great!But than parents sort off control me..Don worried..Let me finish my education and get a good job first.Then I pay everything and owe you nothing..Just give me time and Won let you guys down although i being treated like this.No time to argue..

Fuck never get my last month pay..Fucking piss off..Fucking Agnes!!!Sleeping is it..Bloody jerk!Yeah,Agnes last day today!19/8/06...Weee..All the best and good luck sucker!

Mum very understanding and reasonable but than I understand how she feel inside..Hope she respect my decision coz i'm her daughter..I can do for them anything and won let them down so I hope they able to give and accept for what I want.Just give her time..For dad,forever he thinks he is right and follow his way..So,don bother to talk abt him..He treat me like a kiddy and I'm not a kiddy anymore..Always mood swing one..Crazy sia..

Exam Exam Exam..Don feel like exam season..Duno is exam or not..Feel like i take it so easy and relax..Hmm,if fail good for me coz I deserve a good lesson..If pass,that's good coz i deserve a pass or I can say I'm too smart already..LoL..Actually,I did do revision and study lah but I spend my time more on work and projects..If i didnt met into accident,I jz need to concentrate with my exam and work..Kinda hard and tough to juggle leh..Is not hard and difficult to focus or concentrate is hard to have a good rest..-_-" Lucky left with theory only..2weeks exam..Yawn..

2006-08-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

My aim, goal and target:

(During the past and made it)
- Pass my major projects,assignments,artefact and presentation for my dip in design
(Here are the results)
Grade

Group work Project (Product and marketing) A

Individual Project (Desiging and R&D) A

Artefact (Theme: Travel,Entertainment,Storage,

Products,Time,Fountain,Music,Transportation) A

Assignment (Webpage,gaming,internet and multimedia) B+

Presentation (Product design and Make) B+

- Promoted to be a Part-Shift Manager

-Take driving lesson
-Pass my dip in Information Technology with flying colors
(Here are the results)
Unit Grade
DIT101 Computer Systems Essentials High Distinction
DIT102 Programming Principles Distinction
DIT103 Database Systems Credit
DIT104 Business Organisation and Communication Credit
DIT113 Programming With VB.Net High Distinction
DIT118 Internet and Multimedia Distinction

(For Now)
- Finish my diploma in Design and pass with flying colors

(Mean must get top 5 in design level)
- Continue Higher Dip In Information Technology
(Hopefully in the month of sep or Nov)
- Finish my manager training asap
- Finish my FTT and Driving test (By next year may)
- Have a loving,romantic and well build relationship

(In Future)
- Find a suitable and capable job (Product Designer,Web Designer,Gaming)
-Study Monash University or University of GreenWich (Computing/IT Degrees)
- Want a Sports car (Ferrari F430,2006 Lamborghini Gallardo Spyder OR 2007 Mitshubishi
Eclipse Spyder GT)
- Stay happy and loving in relationship when the time comes tell my parents..

2006-08-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

GOSH!!!LATE for work!!!Hahaha...Mum trying to wake me up but cant..She fed up and slam me hard till i awake and i didnt feel the pain either.I also very angry ah coz she disturb me sleeping and I HATE IT Lor when i sleeping somebody disturb or interupt..Very rude and no basic manners lor..Idiot!!LoL!!!Hahaha....Damn tired and still can slack on my bed and took my sweet time get ready for work..OMG!!!Suppose to report work 10am at J8K end up report at 12pm.. Err..Late for 2hrs..Reached work Agnes gave me black face and scolded me..What the FUCK BITCH!!!Like what sia..is not i always late or not i purposely want to late also lor...Can say my first time I late for 2hrs ah..Unfair sia..Fucker!Hate her to the core!!!However at times she is nice and good but than I always see her as a bitch.I just hate her ah..I don like her actually becoz there is a reason behind it why I hate her and I'm happy coz left 1 more week to go is be our grand celebration!!!Countdown to ROD...YEAH!!!Hahaha...Yeah,I'm so bad and evil..Feel so good and happy of myself.

Kinda busy at work...This few days facing fussy,attitude,problematic and demanding customers.. ARGH!!!!FUCK THEM!!!Really testing my patient sia..Luckly i very patient and can control myself..Still can be so happy and put a smile on my face..Well,is not a fake smile or sacrastic smile lor..is a sincere and friendly smile..Hahaha..what the hell am I doing?Miracle ya..Well,that is just me..;p Hahaha..busy also I won neglect my bady..chat with my baby while working since not that busy..Busy also still on the fone and do the orders..Felt happy when hear my baby voice..omg!Ahh...missing my baby..Love my baby alot alot..

Miss my beloved baby sia..Fucking miss sia..Almost going to 2weeks my baby not by my side and sleep with me. Where ever I go or what my baby will always be by my side and be with me at all time without fail..I miss the feel,touch, sliding and pressing sia...Just fucking miss everything..Ahh..My Beloved N91..

Great!Guess what!Yesterday,11/8 I didnt except to saw someone and we both really bump into each other..I saw my idiol who is Raudha..I mean she used to be my idiol when I'm a cadet.. Then end up we both go in diff way..Hahaha..she totally changed alot lah..There is always a ques which I keep asking myself sia..Coz I feel it is really true and reflect it too..Hahaha..Really duno what is happening..Maybe it is really main and fade we end up like now..LoL.. Anyway,I'm happy what I am now.Exam coming...!!!AHH..Guess need to full blast my gear again..Sian..Burn midnight oil..-_-"

2006-08-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE

Back blogging again...Long time never blog sia..Being super busy with work, studies for upcoming exam and personal stuffs..Sian..What to do life is like this.. Anyway,used to it lor..

Down with fever and sore thoart..Haiz..Body damn weak and felt so cold...Unlike myself..Normally i won fall sick easily..What a day..!!!Body so damn weak and giddy when work today.Wanted to go home early but too lazy to open my mouth so just hack care and continue working..Felt my condition was unlike in the past. Now abit sick easily and cant take it..Getting old i guess..Sian aging lor..What the hell..Maybe used to it with the slacking environment..Felt surprise and so happy coz my baby suddenly pop out when I was working.Cant stop smiling sia...too happy lor..=) Then we spent time together and sent her home..

Miss NDP sia..Wasted never watch live coz no tix and never go for NDP traning too..Every year sure will go one lor..Only this year never sia...Really miss the march in and march pass parade..I just miss parade lah...Cant get over with it.If there a time machine I wish to go back the past but impossible...Well,it really bring back alot of memories ah..

Exam coming soon...Still can slack and haven fully prepared yet lor...Still can take it so easy lor but got confident ah can pass...Hahaha...Coz somehow i feel i got well prepared and is my fav subject..LoL..Sian...

2006-08-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!

Boring...Have to work..Unable to join my secondary sch frends go back secondary sch..Haiz..Miss the fun again..However,I'm so touched coz my secondary classmates came all the way down to see and spend time with me..I so happy and touched sia...So sweet of them..Thnx guys...=) Hope to see you guys around and please have another outting or chalet..LoL..

Missing my baby..Anyway,i'm so busy like that..Busy doesnt mean I neglect.Guess have to change my routine and do something with it..Hope able to spend time with my baby..Love you baby.. XD

Mummy not in singapore..Go overseas trip..Daddy take care of me..Fucking sia...Rather my dad go lah and my mummy stay..Missing my mummy...Sian no one cook for me...

2006-07-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

Everyone do mistakes and we learn from it..I realise my mistake and I don wish to repeat it again.After have a chat wif my buddy (Mas),I felt so happy and different..I don wish we both end up in different way or we quarrel over such a small matter.I really cant loss her...Although we are not in a good term at that point of moment,I still care and try to be like last time..I'm not being selfish ya..Only my true frends understand me and I believe you understand me deeper rite..Anyway,thnx for accepating who am I and be there for me..I really miss the old time we together and I hope we able to be like last time..You are always my best buddy man! I love you ya!!! =D

Haiz...don wish to see someone but end up we bump into each other..My god!!!With other people which I don like..Great!!!Fuck sia...But nvm I don give a damn..But when see already,Like so moodless and the surronding around me changed..Like so weird..Sometimes I myself don understand my character and feeling..Is like my character and behaviour didnt match with my personality..Duno why I so stubborn and rebellious at times.. However, did make a move to talk just a word 'BYE' and smile also like so cramp.Duno what to say sincere or fake smile..Lame!!!Hahaha..Well,i guess is better than nuthing..

Orite..make Cat(Asst manager) pissed off after log off from work..She was freaking pissed off with the staffs and fucking schedule..She was super bad mood and black face sia..Then I get scolded with all the vulgarities from her and she really screwed my ass sia..Well,is my fault coz she was stress up than I keep asking for my off day..She was blooody annoyed and irritated. LoL!She scolded and nagged I still over there can smile and so happy lah..Idiot sia me..Hahaha.. When she teaching me some paperwork and talking to me,I was busying doing my stuffs and she scolded me again and said i very rude and bla bla bla..Hahaha..I there also like happy and smile lor..Then Cat also fed up lah..People serious and angry I there like chilled and nuthing happened. Well,that is juz me lah..When get scolded or what i will smile and laugh..Like so happy..Hahaha..

Hmm..freaking Jealous sia..Just don like it..Guess they duno the different in me ah..Well,it take times to understand my true color and my background..Normally they only know my surface and always see me so happy and cheer up..Hahaha..

2006-07-29T12:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!

Celebrate our 1mth annivesary yesterday,28/7/06..Yeah!=) Went Marina Square than when Suntec City to have dinner at Fish N Co..Then when esplanade and chilled awhile.Then sent my baby home..Hehehe..Anyway,Love ya baby..Stay happy and smile ya..Cheerz!=) Miss ya dear..

When for a hair cut and highlight my hair..Sian with black hair for 4years.. Sian sian sian..Hahaha..My hair dresser so cool and hot lah.. Hahaha..I LOVE MY HAIR NOW!!!WEEE..YEAH!

I'm so vain!!!People called me vaid pod!Hahaha..

2006-07-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

Third day of my PSM training..Suppose to be happy and excited but I was down and dissapointed.Somehow I have this feeling my training being extend and dragged again coz of my condition..Suppose to end my training 24/7/06 but coz of the accident so delay..I know i'm physically injured but my mentallity is still working..Just trust and let me handle it and I prove I can run the store with my critical condition..I really want to finish my training asap and I have enough of dragging and postponed my training.I will felt so down and I duno what will happened next...I just hope they have faith and trust me I can do it and I won let them down.

A called was received again.."WHERE ARE YOU?WHY DIDNT YOU TURN UP YTD AND WHY YR HP IS OFF?WHERE IS YOUR LOCATION NOW?BETTER TELL IF NOT YOU WILL REGARD!BETTER WATCH OUT!" My reply was "I'M BUSY YTD AND I SOMEWHERE WHICH I DON THK CONCERN YOU." Hang the fone..Ytd was my second day of school and I hoping it to be happening and fun..Well it really turn up to be very "happening."My stomach is still pain and the feeling is like a bruise..OUCH!!!Touch abit can feel the pain and I think the pain is from inside.Fucking hurt..OMG!!! Its hurt till today..Now my legs and stomach hurts..Duno next what is it..

My mummy and daddy is very angry and unhappy with you.I hope you know who you are..My dad as usual keep scolding and talking about the past..And I think he will carry on tHis till you meet up.I cant stand it anymore..As for my mum,she may be nice and understand at the beginning but when you didnt kept your promise she will start to hate the person.So my advise is before she start hating and angry with you hope you do something about it..As for me I can forgive you but is hard for me to forget it..Sometimes I asked myself why I'm so kind hearted enough to forgive you..But I choose too.I still rmb every words and senten you told me but than you didnt prove it..Your words is louder than your action.I very upset abt it..Now,you can happily go off and as for me I still cant JUMP for your info..Let me tell you ya,I still unlike last time yet..I suffering rite now and I somehow know you reading my blog and my past entries..You yourself can see it..A message received and that's it i deleted it..I'm bloody pissed off to see that msg.Don intend to call or reply..But i jz follow my hearts and I called to make things clear.I hate when someone just jump to conclusion without listening or check it out..You yourself know my character and personality.

2006-07-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

FUCK!!!MY BABY SPOIL!!!ARGH!!!Haiz...Fucking sad and really very sad..Not in the mood..Everything in my baby is gone!!!GREAT!!!What the hell..Fucking no mood and miss my baby..Haiz..sent for service..Then have to wait for 3days..That is long..I can die without my baby..For godness sake! I just want it back and MAKE SURE is in well condition...MY BELOVED N91-->MY BABY..

Orite..Too much things to blog.Just blog what i can..Well,i have enough with all this..Really..Very tiring and frustating..Let you go and be who you want..Don bother to come back or turn to me..You should know what you had done.It takes two hands to clap..I treasure and cherish our friendship and this what I get?Guess there's no point for us to quarrel or what..Just safe your breathe and be happy with what you have know..About me you can just forget about it and fuck care me..I don wish to suffered again as you know i suffered in pain alot and recently jz recovered too..Is up to you to accept it or not..I still can be there for you but unlike last time..This called truth frend?Ask yourself this ques..

Thnx guys for be there for me..I really apprecaite it..I happy to have a caring and sweet frends like you people..(Should know who you are..=D) I felt different with you guys..Coz my own frends they just don accept who am I.They are nice people and understanding.Just that some of them just don really accept who am I.Yes,they very care and treasure me alot but sometimes don understand why they are like that..

Taxi fees was expensive!!!Duno this fucking drive drove me to where..Trying to be funny with me.I was unlike myself..My throat is burning and my eyes is as red as fire!!!Guess I was drunk?Well,who knows..Anyway,who cares .Is my life..No one have the rite to stop me..I can do what I want..I'm not a KID anymore..Get down the taxi without paying a single cents..Believe it?The taxi driver trying to be funny so I be funny back..Fucking attitude prob with the driver till so scared and drove away..That is just my devil side of me..I don care what people think about me. When I gone mad,no one can stop me..

Stop controlling and barking at me..I'm 19years old already..I'm not a KID.To your eyes I'm still a kiddy to you but Please I'm not..Wake up and move on..Hate people control my life and my freedom!I hate it and i mean it!What right do you have?I'm know what is right and wrong.God gave me a brain to think..You may think I'm selfish and etc..Go ahead,no one stop you from all this..As long I know what I'm doing and is right I don need to feel guilty.Still have the guards to lie and cheat me..Bloody hell!Dare to tell me NO!Ya,I'm not a bloody fool..Think you mess with the who person..Doesnt mean I kept quiet or didnt take action with it means I duno nuthing or etc..I knew it everything from head to toe but I just kept to myself and waiting for you to tell me the truth..However you take it for granted.What can I say?I have nuthing to say..Coz you chose that way..Don ever let the person who treasure and love you start to loss his/her respect and trust before it too late to turn back.

Well...I wish I can be there for you at all times..Cheer you up and make you happy.Lend you my ears to listen your prob..My shoulder for you to shade your tears..My hug to keep you comfort and better..I know how you feels..The pain,hurt and etc..Is very terrible. Although you denied and show me your smile,I still knew it in your heart you deeply heart pain,hurt and sad..There's nuthing to hide from me..I gone it thur and I understand how you feel..Well,I hope you be strong and slowly move on...It takes long time to recover and be strong again.No matter what also..The pain and hurt in your heart will still remain a scar although you recover.I hope you able to turn over a new leaf and move on.Hope you will change to a better person and have a blessing life ahead..I will still be there for you.No,worries about me and my feeling...I want to see you stay happy and feel how does the feeling of the truth love means..The treasure,cherish and etc...Hope I brighten you up and now everything is in your hand..

2006-07-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

I'm bored..Still stuck at home..Waiting to recover..Cant wait to go back school and work..Want to get busy back again..Don like this kind of environment which i facing now..Slacking and relaxing.. Ewww...Just not my type..

Suppose to go out with my daddy to get my stuffs..But than I choose to go out myself coz I don want him get angry and impatient with the speed I walk..Just don want him to nag and say unpleasnt stuffs to me..So to prevents from all this I rather go myself.Went J8 to buy my design stuffs..Running out of zebra marker,sketch paper and bla bla bla..Make my way to NTUC..Go buy alot of stuffs lah..Damn alot..Well,I rather buy myself than trouble my parents to get my stuffs...Prevent from getting scolding and nagging..Then bump into my ex-sec sch teacher who is my Female CO,Mrs Lau..Haha..She was shocked to see my condition and she sound so motherly too..And she cant recognise me coz of my hairstyle.. LOL!!!Chat awhile and as usual asked me to come back the unit and help out..Haha..Well see how first lah..Not enthu in sch unit anymore ah..Loss interest..Only have interest in HQ and helping out other units..Guess I make them down ya..Well..Who cares..I rather not come back lor coz i don wish to see someone who hurts me deeply till I in trouble pain and make my life suffered!!!DON BOTHER and DON EVEN WANT TO SEE AT ALL!!!Have enough with all this non sense and dilemma already..So better don come back and don want to get into trouble too..

When J8K to hang out with my staffs and catherine(Asst Manager).WOW!!!What a surprise..My classmates was there and they surprised me..That's MIRACLE lah..How on earth they Know I will be there..Hmm..???I'm happy to see them.YEAH!!!Thnx guys for the cakes..So sweet of you all.I will rmb and cherish this happy moment together!Cheerz!=) MISS AND LOVE YOU GUYS!!!My buddy(Mas) was there too..She was with her frend studying and I just chat awhile with her..Don want to disturb people study lor..People business student leh..Very particular one and calculative oso..Hehehe..

Alot of things happened in work when I met into an accident..The outlet turn to be very hectic and chaostic..Lack of manpower..Duno where all the staffs go to...Resign?Attitude prob?Haiz.. duno what the hell happening..Then Khai(Asst manager) is resigning coz he is totally breakdown and deeply hurt..Abt r/s and other stuffs too...Then Agnes(OM) also resigning coz get a better offer job!!!She already gave her tender...Haiz..what the hell..Is like i juz promoted to be a Part-Time Shift Manager (PSM) and now I still under training leh..Haven even step into the family and have bonding yet and all this disaster is happening...I don even have a chance to learn and have a warm welcome..Now I only have to depend on Cat(Asst Manager) and Lionel(PSM).. But the most is Cat coz she have more experience..That is so pathetic oK..Great!!!All one shot being attacked. Haiz..Then as for me I know I promoted to PSM but doesnt mean I forget my path Ok..I'm not..I still now where I stand and my route is..I just feel sad coz my work frends they keep saying this about me..Like "wah,somebody psm mah forget frends what."PSM what,big what not like as jz a staffs."and bla bla bla..Is not a matter of joking or not..I know whether they are joking,sarcastic or being straight forward..I duno what to say..I just can say that I lossing some of my work frends coz of my promotion..However,some are still there for me..Thnx guys..I really appriecate it..Then I feel I lossing my buddy too..Guess she is attached that why things change..We just unlike last time..Orite,i going to stop here not in the mood to type already..Take care..

2006-07-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

Orite...What a Freaking day today..Haiz...Unhappy moment suddenly appeared..I was totally break down and sad till duno how to describe..Then I was damn angry and i can feel my temper at anytime can erupt and explore..I was totally speechless awhile when see the message and mentally and physicaly breakdown too..I tried to calm down and control my temper as I know myself very well that I'm a very hot temper.I didnt want to throw my temper or scold.. Not even want to show my angry side either...However,I manage to control my anger and kept to myself..I tried to think positively and understand..But I only able to understand..It is so hurt and in pain..However,I manage to get over with it and become myslef again..

Well..I just feel like whacking and scold the other party up-side-down who is a FUCKING BUGGER!!But than I don want to make it a big "UH AH"..So just give in and let it go this time.. Furthermore I don want to dissapoint and make a big mess over it..Anyway,I get over it already..

oK..I feel so GOOD!!!Yeah!!!My baby back from chalet..Weee..=) Have a chat with my baby.. Very miss my baby alot alot alot!!!BABY..I MISS YOU LEH..YOU KNOW???I LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT ALOT TILL DUNO HOW TO DESCRIBE..YOU KNOW??Orite..So poor thing leh my baby doenst have enough rest and got headache..Still need to go out with family later.. Hopefully my baby enjoy and have fun out there..=D Baby..don worried oK..No matter what happened I still love you and you are mine!!!Don feel bad of yourself already..People do mistake and we learn from it..No one is perfect..So cheer up my dear..C'mon baby smile and be happy..You look cute with a smile on your face..=D LOVE YOU BABY...!!Stay Happy always..=)

PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN 2

DEAN MAN'S CHEST

CAPTAIN JACK

Orite..going to watch this movie soon with my baby..Weee..So happy!!!But than ah duno when to watch..We watching soon ya baby...=) oK..got going. Cheerz!=)

2006-07-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 0800hrs..Damn tired and sleepy..oK,duno what to say I mood swing or just too tired..Was totally break down and not in the mood..Just don feel myself..Got doctor appointment today..My parents and nephew accompany me to Ang Mo Kio Poly Clinic.Need to remove my stiches but end up didnt remove just applied medicine and change the dressing..My stitches still not full recover..The meat join up and look better jz that the skin haven join up yet..So still got gap and wet cant remove the stich.So next saturday have to go back and remove the stiches. Hopefully this time is orite and able to remove the stiches.My stiches not that pain but than I still cant walk per-normal.Waiting for the moment that I can walk per-normal..

My parents and nephew went out..As for me go home and rest..Slack around the home.I'm so happy coz I'm alone at home and got peace + privacy.. YEAH!!!=D Man...I cant stay at home anymore..Super bored and I keep complaining alot..Haha!!! So bored till I always keep eating and sleeping.. Haha!!!Like part of my routine..Then do my projects,assignment and study..Very bored like no life..-_-"

Haiz...I so lonely and bored coz missing my baby!!!My baby went for chalet.. Then Cant really message and call too..Can die never contact my baby.. Really so lonely and missing my baby badly..BABY,WHERE ARE YOU!!!I MISSING YOU AND I NEED YOU!!! *soBsoB* Keep thinking what my baby doing and all that..My baby VERY PRECIOUS too me...LOVE MY BABY ALOT ALOT ALOT!!! ><

Well...Guess two days I have to wait for my baby again..Missing my baby..Really really miss my baby..Is like we are so far apart lah...Seldom get to see and meet up my baby..But no worries!!=) Althought we are apart but my heart is always not apart from my baby..My baby is always in my heart.My heart is melted and moulded by my baby!!!YEAH!!!=D When days goes by my feeling for my baby increases and I LOVE MY BABY ALOT!!!><

2006-07-14T04:00:00.000+08:00

Ok...now going to be 3am and is going to be my BEDTIME!!!Hahaha..my bedtime is always at 3am no matter school or work..Just cant sleep early duno why..Not sleepy and tired either.. Still busying with my stuffs and up to something now..Everyone is sleeping and only left me still fully awake like an OWL..Hahaha..Ok,still doing my project..Like what I say my routine and busying burning midnight oil..I suddenly miss my ncc frends that we treasure,cherish and have fun...I miss Ncc so much espically the frends that I have and Ncc frends are the one bring me happiness..Most of my true frends come form Ncc..

Here are some pictures and histories I would like to share..=) I REALLY MISS ALL THE FUN AND MEMORIES IN NCC..

WHEN I WAS A CADET TO A SPECIALIST...

That is me in the middle..This picture took in the year 2002 when I was Secondary 3.... DURING SEA COMPETITION AND WE ARE,PHS WAS THE CHAMPION!!! =D

THIS IS MY SCH UNIT,PRESBYTERIAN HIGH SCH (PHS). IN THE YEAR OF 2004..LOL..HAVING MY 'O' LVL LEH..

WELCOME GUARD 2003!!!ROX MAN!!!!THIS ARE MY BEST BUDDY AT THAT TIME...(LANGE,HUDA,RIZAL AND ALI)...AS USUAL I'M ALWAYS THE OUTSTANDING COZ ALL WHITE!!!..NO.1 UNIFORM..I LOVE IT!!=)

OMG!!!I LOVE THIS PIC SO MUCH!!!IT BRING ALOT OF MEMORIES!!THIS ARE MY PRECIOUS AND BELOVED GIRLS I TRAINED THEM TO BE A LEADER!!!=) MY ROD YEAR 2004..SO SAD COZ STAND DOWN AND HAVE TO LEAVE THEM.THIS ARE MY PART A & B GIRLS AND I'M THE USM(UNIT SERGEANT MAJOR) FOR THE UNIT!!

DURING NCC DAY PARADE 2004.I WAS THE PARADE RSM WHICH HOLD THE 3RD HIGHER POSITION IN THE PARADE.I WAS PROUD AND HAPPY OF MYSELF!=) THAT IS MY SCH UNIT PPL AND MY SCH PRINCIPLE,MRS CARLOYN TAN..SHE ALWAYS SUPPORT ME AH TREAT ME AS HER KID..HAHA!!!

HERE ARE THE LEADER!!!THIS ARE MY PLATOON MATES.. JIAN HAO (THE LOGISTIS GUY),ME (GIRLS USM) AND EDWIN (BOYS USM).THE WHITE AND GOLD LANYARD THAT I WEARING I REALLY RESPECT IT!! I'M PROUD TO BE A SUPERNUMARIES..ROX MAN!!!=D

WHEN A BECOME CLT...(CLT COURSE BRING ME ALOT OF MEMORIES)

THIS PIC TOOK DURING AFFIRAMATION CEREMONY 2005..WOW!!!WEARING 5J SO COOL..THIS ARE MY BEST BUDDY (SIAOZER)..HAHA..WE ARE UNITED AS ONE!!! JOEL,KOK TENG,LAY YIAN AND I -->ALWAYS THE LAST AND THE SHORTEST..-_-"

DURING SUPERNUMERARIES SELECTION..THIS ARE MY CRAZY PLATOON MATES..HAHA..ALL OF US COME FROM DIFF ELEMENT AND DISTRICT.SO UNITED!!! KHALISAH ( LAND-CENTRAL), ME (SEA) AND IMAN (AIR)...

WHEN BECOME S/CLT...(MORE HAPPENING AND ROX MAN!!!)

THIS IS MY KAKI AND MY NCC FAMILY!!! I LOVE BEING WITH THEM AND THEY ROX MAN!!!I WON FORGET THE HAPPY AND FUN MOMENT WE HAVE TOGETHER.ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY!

YEAH!!!THE FAMILY IN THEIR NCC UNIFORM!!THIS TIME I WEARING MY 5J WITH MY S/CLT RANK.SO HAPPY AND PROUD GET TO WEAR COZ I EARN IT!AFFIRAMATION CEREMONY 2006..

DURING SPECALIST COURSE PHASE 2 (2006). INSTRUCTORS NIGHT!!!HAHA...CADETS SUFFERED,INSTRUCTORS TEKAN THEM AND HAVING FUN..

PHOTO TOOK DURING SWISS COTTAGE BAND..NCC SUPERNUMARIES FAMILY WITH OUR DEAR FATHER,1WO CHRISTOPER BRYAN DI SILVA.

Check it out this website: http://sg.search.yahoo.com/search?p=Farah+sara+lange&y=Singapore&fr=FP-tab-web-t909&toggle=1&cop=&ei=UTF-8

2006-07-13T23:55:00.001+08:00

oK...Today is a great day for me!!!Woke up at 0900hrs..Cant wait to see my baby..Well,guess my frends sure will nag and scold me coz my condition like that still want to go out..Make them disappointed and upset.When come to love sure will do everything and anything for the love ones..I just miss my baby badly..It been a very long time we never spend time and meet together..Hope you guys understand..If you in my situation you will feel it and understand too..

Suppose to meet Hui Yun at YCK platform at 1.30pm but than ah got some cock up..Hahaha.. communication break down so we go ourself...She was heading to Tampanies as for me heading to Simei..Hahaha..GOSH!!! I tot that I was late..Hahaha...but than i was on time..GREAT!!!Waited for my baby outside East point starbucks..GENG!GENG!GENG!Here my baby come.. Weee..so happy!!!With frends along..oK,then we walk around east point..Bring me tour!!!Hahaha..Then slack her and there...Wow!!!My baby like so well known lah..Everywhere go people Know and so many frends..Haha..Then as for me so outcast..Hahaha..OMG!!!My baby frends said that I CUTE!!!Then give me a wide smile and said "HI"..Hahaha...Weee..So happy!!!LoL..That's is jz me.. Hahaha..As usual so BHB..Haha,vain pod!!!Cant be help ah..;p Well,nuthing much to shop and interesting too..Unlike TOWN and City hall my fav place to hang out!!!Oh..baby i forgot to show you the video I took during the coldplay concert leh..When we meet again i show you ya..=) Yeah...Then we hang out at starbucks...Hahaha!! So happy get to drink my fav drink - ->JAVA CHIP ICE BLEND...

I was so happy get to spend time with my baby...Miss my baby badly...Well,I never ask for much lah..As long get to see and spend time together i appreciate it..Coz I understand my baby busy with studies and this year major year too..=) I miss the way my baby hold me..><><>

oK..make my way to Simei MRT Station.Took 30min to walk back coz of my condition...If i can walk thk probably takes about 15min to 20mins..Hahaha.. Ok,head to my school to hand in some sch stuffs..Then go J8 to take my jacket at my work place..LoL...met catherine(Asst Manager), Gan Jun,Fidaae(my adik),Mas(my buddy) and Ridzman(Mas's husband)...Hahaha..Hang out with them awhile and than go home..LoL..took a taxi home coz cant walk anymore..Thk my stiches cant take it need to take a break.Ok,reached home as usual continue doing my projects and assignment..That will me my routine from now..Hahaha!!!

2006-07-12T16:50:00.000+08:00

Ok,I still on MC..Still at home and not at school..Bored!!!Miss my frends but not the school..LoL!!!Just cant wait go back to sch and work. ARGH!!!!Stupid pilling!!!Really make me angry and piss me off from my sleep..Cant even sleep soundly and peacefully..Woke up at 0835hrs which is damn early!!!Cant sleep back so go and study and do my school works..Haiz..Damn alot..And is really alot.Shit lah..When go back school sure I die..Alot of things need to catch up and need to rush my coursework too...=/ I think need to do around 6 artefacts..GOSH!!! My hand well swell like hell coz sawing,buffing,hammering the woods and bla bla bla...Ok,prepare to overnite at school too..Haha...

Hmm...Back doing my assignments and projects..Damn ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!OMG!!!Ok..my E-learning is flood..Hahaha...Too many files which contain all my sch works and assignments..Die.. -_-" some deadline is nearing and that is fast lah...So unfair..LoL!!!But no worries some deadline is till very far far away..Haha..but still have to do coz I don like last min stuffs..Thought in tertiary education can slack and relax. LoL...Still need to do so many assignements and projects. Well,I feel that I'm a easy going person..Like no worries and still can slack but than still able to fns and hand up my work on time and punctuality is important!!!Guess I manage my time and cope with it well..=)

Ok..my classmates came to my house pass me some school works and important notes for upcoming exam..Haiz...EXAM EXAM EXAM!!!That is so boring lah..Then sure have to burn midnight oil again...=/ Later at nite,still need to burn midnight oil lor..Need to do project..Still got alot more to go and finish up..Then still have to crack my brain and squeeze the brain juice out for the projects..Need to think and explore about design.Somehow I stucks with some of the ques and maybe asking my frends to do it for me..Hahaha...;p Well,got going lor..Cheerz!=D

2006-07-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

My daddy woke me up so early at 0930hrs.Damn early!!!I still felt so shagged and tired...So sleeply don feel like waking up but I have to coz need to go hospital and remove my stiches.Duno why so tired maybe becoz of the concert ah I "jump" too much.Hahaha...;p

Damn!!!Suppose to go hospital in the morning end up went in the afternoon.. Thank to my elder sister coz she came to my house and want to take all her stuffs coz she shifting house..Make me wake up so early than have to wait for my sister to done..So wonderful rite..Then around 2pm when hospital..Ok,I can feel my heart beating very face and I was scared to remove my stich..I just scared of the pain..I just afraid I cant take it the pain..Ok,the feeling was not pain when removing my stiches coz it was dry..However,some of my stiches not fully recover and is still wet..OUCH!!!The nurse go and pull the wet stiches and I can feel the impact,IT'S HURT AND PAIN!!!I was shock at a moment but I told myside MIND OVER BODY AND ENDURE..Haiz..

Suppose to be happy coz removing my stiches and can walk pre-normal but than I was sad and loss hope coz my stiches not fully removed!!!Coz there is still a gap and the stiches is wet!!!That's is the wound which make me cant walk properly and the cut is deep too..I just hope and pray the gap is close..Another appointment is on 15 July (Sat) to remove my stiches again.I hope this time everything is fine..

Well,My daddy is still angry and mad at with although he didnt say a thing or scold me..I can tell from his face..I just guess he cant forget the accident and see me in this critical condition..I try my best not to make a mistake coz I know if I make a mistake he will erupt and that it's another world war..He for sure like talk about the accident and all the unpleasent words and vulgarities will come out from his mouth..I just don like it coz is that a way a father behave?Guess not rite..Is not professionel at all..But than he still nagged at me which really turn me off and piss off..Haiz,I also cant do anything so just listen..As for my mummy,she will always be there for me no matter what..She really take good care of me and well treat me..She really put alot of her effort to spend time with me and I have full attention..Somehow I can feel that she Knows that I lack of family love and attention.So she play her part..I really can feel my mummy love..She really love me alot and she even cried for me.I see her cried for me I felt so heart pain and sad to cause all this incident..I felt so stupid of myself.. Totally regret..I just wish if there is a time machine I wish to rewind it..But is impossible..

Mummy and Daddy I'm sorry to disappoint you and make you down..Sorry to cause you alot of trouble and make you feel so worried over me..Thank for your care and concern.You really shower me with your love and I appreciate it.I hope this won happened again and I will take this as a lesson.Love you always!!

2006-07-11T03:44:00.000+08:00

COLDPLAY TWISTED LOGIC 2006

(LIVE BAND CONCERT)

OMG!!!!THEY ROX MAN!!! I LOVE THEIR CONCERT!!!

WOW!!!THE CONCERT IS DAMN COOL AND ROX MAN!!!YEAH!!!I LOVE IT!!!=) The feeling and the impact of the concert really make me feel like jumping and screaming...Really can control my movement.Wah,if my leg not injure,sure i will be jumping and making alot of noise with my buddy..But than I cant jump coz of my leg..What a waste!Damn!!!So just sit there and control myself..Hahaha!!!Well,for My buddy(Mas) she totally gone crazy...She can go more crazy and wild but than coz my leg she cant be so hyper..She really having fun and screaming like nobody business...GOSH!!!My ear almost going to turn deaf...Then I so worried that she will heat my stiches cos she too excited already...Haha!!!But than she didnt..She take good care of me.Thnx buddy..=) Love you!! Overall,It was a fun and enjoyment moment..Although we did quarrl and teasting at the beginning..Hahaha,jz a childish matter..;p

LoL...My buddy was not on time one..Always late..Duno what so difficult to be punctual..Never early one leh..I'm always the one will be waiting for her very long...Wait till my classmates and teachers also appeared.LoL!!! Sometimes really loss my patient and make me piss off..Then start throwing my temper to her..Hahaha...Then she over there jz keep quiet or stay away from me coz she know i going to erupt..Hahaha!!!Ok,jz now suppose to meet at 5.30pm but end up waiting for her till 7pm..Hmm,very long leh till my stiches felt so uncomfortable..Then her BF,Ridzman appeared..He end school so ya like that..

LoL,so smart asked the BF to entertain me lah coz she know I was piss off and she was late.. Hahaha..That was funny and the BF really entertain me..His jokes super lame and crapped lah he..Hahaha...Damn funny!!!Haha..My buddy reached and as for me as usual nag and bark at her..She also fed up with me and lazy to bother..We end up not talking to each other and we do our own stuffs..LoL!!! Then we suddenly back tgt and this time she keep teasing and make fun of me lah...She called me TURTLE and even make fun of me the way I walk!!!Coz i cant walk properly and walk damn slow.Errr..Want to bite her off!!Haha!!! I also cant do anything so she continue and enjoy making fun of me..Well,is funny lah...Instead of angry,I happy and laugh like nobody business..Hahaha!!!She really make my day! Is fun ah going out wif her..Like so many character can happened in one day..Well,althought I feel that we are slightly difting apart becoz she's ATTACHED but than agian she will still me my best buddy!!!=D The nagging and scolding is nuthing actually..Jz want our bonding and frendship remain uphold and strong!=)

Lange and Mas..Happy frends forever!!!

Ooo..That's me..The cute,chio and cool girl..

Whaha..Peace everyone!=)

2006-07-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Artist: LifehouseSong: BlindAlbum: Lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive

I watched helpless as he turned around to leave

and still I have the pain I have to carry

a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this timeI never thought we'd be here

never thought we'd be herewhen my love for you was blind

but I couldn't make you see it

couldn't make you see it

that I loved you more than you'll ever know

a part of me died when I let you goI would fall asleep

only in hopes of dreaming

that everything would be like is was before

but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time

I never thought we'd be here

never thought we'd be here

when my love for you was blind

but I couldn't make you see it

couldn't make you see it

that I loved you more than you'll ever know

a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time

would you ever wanna leave it

maybe you could not believe it

that my love for you was blind

but I couldn't make you see it

couldn't make you see it

that I loved you more than you will ever know

a part of me died when I let you go

and I loved you more than you'll ever know

a part of me dies when I let you go

Ahhh!!!I LOVE THIS SONG..I CRAZY OVER THIS SONG!!!OMG!!! OMG!!!Cant stop listening and thinking of someone..This song really melts my heart.Whenever I listen this song,I will be very happy and remind me of my baby..This song really very loving and make me thinking of my baby more..Well,suppose to be a sad and emo song i guess but I don see in that way..=)

Ok..This song i like to dedicate to my beloved baby..=) Hope you like it and enjoy it ya..LOVE AND MISS YOU ALWAYS!!!Hug and Kisses!You Rox!!!=D

oK..I duno why I'm not strong enough and be firm when come to sad or bad things in frendship or relationship..Esp relationship..I really scared to have relationship and i always tell myself whether I'm ready to have one..When come to relationship I duno why I so soft hearted and give in always..End up I intend to give in and the one felt hurt..Is like when come to all this I'm will be the one hurting so deeply and in pain..can feel that the wound in my heart is being poured by a boiling water and the scar still remain there..Then I will start crying over it like cry baby and take a mths or even a year to recover from all this dilemma..Felt so torturing and suffered alot..I ever suffered from this..Can say that I jz recover from this pain not long again..The pain is still there but I glad I did move on and now I found someone in my live..=)

I always take my r/s very serious coz when I love the person I will totally give my fully attention and be there always..Yes,I agreed I'm too freindly and treat every one very nice till some of them get the wrong intention..That's is jz my character..But than again,in my heart,I VERY LOYAL AND SINCERE TO ONE AND THE ONLY ONE!!!No one else..I don love you blindly..My heart is already being melted and moulded by my baby..No matter what happened or what went wrong I WON LEAVE MY BABY AND I WILL LOVE MY BABY FOREVER!!! I MEANT IT AND MARK MY WORDS!! >.<

So if one day happen we go in different way I really cant let you go easily coz once trapped in my heart is hard to escape..Coz I really LOVE YOU AND CRAZY OVER YOU!!!But than I still will let you go coz no point keep you in my heart and you have no feeling for me too..Is better let you go and find someone better.I still have to accept it and respect your decision..Well as for me,as usual I will be suffered in pain and my heart deeply hurt.I will cry every now and than till my eyes can swell badly...Then keep thinking of you and still continue to shower you with my care,concern and love although we are not tgt..Can say it is just not myself anymore.My behaviour and character won't match my personality.I may look happy and smile here and there but than in my heart i will cried and in pain..Forgive me for being like that..That is just me.

Furthermore, I won forget or leave the person easily,I will wait and won give up..But really no hope and no progress,I will tell myself to move on and be strong..I will push myself and motivate myself..It's very difficult and sometimes my sadness feeling will come back.Well,what I can say now No matter what I LOVE MY BABY AND I WON LEAVE MY BABY!!!

2006-07-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HASSAN,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FREND!!!=D
(Orh..still underage to watch M18..Whaha.. ;p)

This is a picture of me and Hassan..The Birthday Boy..Yeah!!!=)

Message:Hey,nice knowing you ya..you are such a great frend..

Hope we keep in touch and stay happy always..=) Know you

are happy with your life now..Coz somebody ATTACHED Already..

Hehehe..Well,all the best in what you doing and do keep in touch with the NCC FAMILY!Cheerz..=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO,HAFIDAH!!!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!

ALL THE BEST & STAY HAPPY ALWAYS!=D

(Sorry no picture of her)

Today there's another outting again...Haiz!!!Why lah when I in this critical condition so many fun and exciting outting!!!ARGH!!! Making me jealous and piss off...Ok,celebrating Hassan Birthday today..They meet at 1745hrs at City Hall...Guess going Merlion Park or Marina Squard again??=) Our fav place to hang out and chill...Well,duno who is going coz I think I probably won be joining them lah...So don bother to find out unless I'm going...I want to go but duno what reason or excuce to tell my parents...Guess,have to remain in the prison again...Staring at the ceiling and it stare at me back...BORING!!!

oK...I really cant take it anymore..I cant stay at home and cant make myself damn free..I really need to get busy...I want to go out and have fun...I'm sick staying at home...Damn Sick till I cough so badly my lung also want to drop off but still haven drop yet..Great my cough getting bad to worst..Duno what's wrong with me...Cant sleep that well too coz kept coughing non stop and disturbing my sleep.Is like my stiches nv give me prob than now my cough giving me prob..WHAT THE HELL!!!Think funfair ah...Very irritaing and damn tiring leh..So tired with all this...Ok,i want to vomit and feel so gross + eewww eating the cough mixture...Well,guess i duno how to appreciate the taste..coz it really turn me off when i eat it...my face totally change when the cough mixture was in my mouth...I just feel like puking it but I cant coz that's the only way to recover...Horrible and disaster leh...Ah!!!When can i recover from all this...Faster remove my stiches lah..I cant take it anymore...I don want the pain anymore and I want to walk per-normal..I very sad cant walk per-normal..='(

2006-07-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LTA JOEL,CHEE YONG AND GRACE!!!!

Hope you guys have fun and enjoy your birthday ya...See you guys around and miss you..><

Alright,make up my mind already..I'm not going for the birthday chalet today.. Damn it leh..Actually planned already and want to go one but than happened met into accident and in this critical condition so just forget about the chalet..Damn sad ah cant join them...But than Farhan did cheer me up..He kept crapping and kept me accompany..He offered to bring a wheelcar for me or come to worst supermarket Trolley..Hahaha!!!Crapped!!!

Felt so boring at home again..Cant go out coz parents for sure don allow me go out out..Haiz..I'm like in a prison!!! I rotting at home..What I do eat,sleep,study, online,listening music,watch tv,play games and chat on fone.Damn a Slacker leh.. Cant stand with it already...Need to boost my gear and engine back...Miss my baby so much leh..Duno why..Just missing my baby...oK,Farhan called..Asked me to go the chalet and keep asking me to take a taxi there..Hahaha...chat with Yihan.. Awww..So sweet of themThey miss me so much and they dieing to see me..But sorry lah i really cant..Not I don want ya..=) As usual they make me jealous with the cakes,foods and all those stuffs...Coz they Know I LOVE BBQ FOODS...ESP CHICKEN WINGS..Hahaha...Keep tempting me lah they all...So bad and naughty sia they all..But than again I really miss the fun and excitement..

2006-07-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

Every day so boring...Wake up do the same things..Haiz...When can I recover???I want to go back to school and Work...I'm so bored and lonely at home...Feel like in the prison.Cant do much things also coz of my critical condition..='( I miss hanging out wif my frends,playing pool/snooker,jamming and etc...oK,few more days need to remove my stiches...Kind off scared and have to suffer again...Haiz!!!Don like this kind of feeling and treatment..Very torturing..My stiches still pain...Whenever I took a step its hurt alot and in pain..I duno whether when recover I still able to walk pre-normal and properly anot..I very scared i cant walk per-normal...Well, now i trying to walk properly and fight against the pain...

Haiz...so many fun upcoming events leh..But I going to miss it..Very sad leh..Got Ncc chalet cant go coz my condition still not that good..What to go also like very difficult to walk...Going to miss the fun and enjoyment man..Then going to miss the BBQ foods too..Hahaha...Then got frend Birthday party also leh...Damn it!!! I going to miss it too...So much fun outting I unable to go... What the Hell...!!!ARGH!!!BUT I don care I going to watch the LIVE COLDPLAY On 10 July 06 ah...I don care I going to watch and NOT going to miss it!!!MUST GO AND WATCH IT at indoor stadium!!!Weeee...

Hmm...still thinking whether to start work back next week anot...Well,I can start work back but just that I have no confident in myself coz of the stiches...Its damn hurt and in pain...So I duno I can endure that long when working...I just afraid that the stiches snap and bleed coz too much pressure..Haiz...Still consider about it...Well,see how first ah..Maybe yes go back work..Mybe not just continue slacking at home...

2006-07-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

Listening to Love songs right now...Hmm,i so in love right now....>.< Cant stop thinking and missing someone deeply...Miss the touch and kiss.The feeling is so different till cant describe..Really in Love!!!Wah,long time don have this feeling..Suddenly the feeling come back..Like I felt so different of myself...=) Guess my frends will be surprised and feel weird with me coz they know that I don want to have a relationship right now and want to enjoy too.. Well,cant be help and the feeling in Love this time is different..Totally different..The only thing I going to tell myself is not to repeat my past mistake again and Stay HAPPY ALWAYS!!!~YEAH~WEE...=D

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

MISS YOU DEEPLY!!!

MUACKZ! >.<

Hmm...oK,suddenly i felt so angry and foolish of myself!Haiz..why am I in this FUCKING condition!!! I in pain and my stiches damn hurt...I just cant take it the pain..I always tell myself to endure and be strong coz I tired of taking care of my condition..I so scared that when the next day I wake up I unable to walk..I have enough with the pain and suffered..Whenever I take a step,the stich super pain and I just feel like giving up walking and I can feel my tears rolling down my cheek whenever the pain appeared.I always told myslef "MIND OVER BODY".I always cried in my heart and sometimes I cried in my bed with my pillow covered my face...ITS HURT OK!!!LET ME TELL YOU..!!!FUCKING PAIN AND I REALLY SUFFERED ALOT!!! I Just hope that I able to recover soon..I cant take it anymore..I just feeling i rather die than suffered the pain..

Well,I cant blame my ex-bf(Remy)..Scold or mad with him also no use coz happened already...I just cant forget the accident and I did tell him to ride carefully...Haiz...Just no luck..Ok,I'm FUCKING ANGRY!!!ARGH!!! If I know won take his bike and I won turn up like this critical condition!!!Now,my PSM training have to delay because of my accident...Very sad leh and heart pain..Then dozen of projects and assignment need to catch up when go back school...Got E-learning and internet also no use still need to go back my workshop and do my artefact.. FUCK LEH DAMN PISS OFF!!! Orite...received message from my ex-bf..Duno why I damn angry and piss off with him.. Maybe becoz of this incident..

Well,he still care for his bike and want to go and repair it..Is like what the hell lah..His condition is also in critical condition and still want to thk and care for his bike...Bike anything or later can settle what!!!Life is more important but I don see he like taking care or even care for his life!!!His bike is more important than his life!!!What the hell!!!Ask go see doctor never see.Haiz...up to him lah.I try my best what I can do but no progress so let him be.He can go with his bike!!!!And happened if he have another accident it is not a surprise!!!Well,i don care how he feel reading this entries or what..I jz have enough of it and I don want to thk abt it anymore!

2006-06-29T23:43:00.001+08:00

Ok...woke up at 9am...Leg super cramp and in pain...Quickly grabbed my med and eat..Gosh!!!Feel like crying but I endure...Go back to sleep..Feel much better..Just that my left leg cant move that much...Whole day sleep and slack in my bed...So wonderful but very boring ah..I want to go school and I want to work..Damn boring lah..

Ok..Hui Yun and Jo-Ann suppose to come my house at 11am but Jo-Ann got cramp so they come later..I fall asleep suddenly my buddy(Mas) called me..She was on her way to my house to visit me but she duno how to get to my house...See so silly of her..Haha!!!Sleng ah..Whaha!!!;p Ok.. here she come..Step in my house keep calling my name..Haha..As usual like chatter box..Hehe..Make alot of noise and keep disturbing me.. Overall it was fun lah..coz i also join her..Is like I was in pain at first than suddenly when she was there we crapped alot till not pain.. Hahaha!!!What logic is that???Anyway...she still owe me things... Haha..!!!I request for a black pants for work!!!My black pants tore lor during accident and so many blood so no pants for work..So sad ah my fav pants tore than again Mas keep making fun I wear that pants..So bad of her..So her punishment she have to buy for me!!!Whaha...

Then few minutes later Hui Yun and Jo-Ann come and visit me... Haha..man so caostic and we talk alot of crapped lah...Haha... Weee...Hui yun and Jo-Ann bought for me chocolate!!!Yeah..I loved it!!!=) Ok,we watch vcd...But than Mas have to leave coz she got lesson at 3pm so left Hui Yun and Jo-Ann...Ok,they left around 5pm...Ok,go back to sleep...Nuthing I can do...Very bored lah..Haha...then at nite my grandparents came down visit me..As usual they so care and concern for me..Coz they love me and I very percious to them...Weee!!!=D Ok...need to go hospital tomorrow to change my dressing and clean my stiches..Haiz..

2006-06-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

On 27th june 06 at 11.45pm was an unlucky day for my ex-bf and I...Log off work at 11pm at CSQ and my ex-bf intend to ride me home...Working from 7am-3pm (opening at J8) than 6pm-11pm at CSQ..Haiz,what a tiring day and my fever came back again...Make my way to Tampanies Mall mac to pick me up...Ok,get on his bike and we go off...When we was riding suddenly a speedy taxi swered into the lane and my ex tried to control the gear and we met into an accident..It was so scary..The bike fly off a few distance and we was badly injured...The taxi didnt stop at all and just move off...I still remember the whole incident...I know that I was badly injured..My left knee cap tore badly and I able to see my meat and bone..The blood keep flowing non stop...It looked totally gross and I was so scared to death...My pants were tore badly too and my left lower arm had a slight injury..Luckly during the accident I was concious and know what is happening...Luckly I move my face away from the road surface when during the accident.If not my half part of my face we tore too..Well,I was unable to save my left knee cap coz the bike collapse on me and it hit th fetch and the road surface..That's why the wound was very deep and bad...I was totally in pain..Lucky I able to walk but having difficulty too..My ex-bf was injured too but his is internal injury..He cant straighten his left arm coz bab muscle bruise,left leg very pain than limping and leg wound got infection.

We took a taxi and went to the nearest hospital (Changi Hospital).My wound was damn pain and blood kept flowing non stop...We waited for about 3hours to be our turn..It was damn long lah..Lucky I able to endure..Great!!!My fever came back and I was damn weak..I kept shivering and trying to keep myself warm..Khai(Asst Manager) came down to hospital to see my condition but he not allow to enter the ward so he have to stand outside and see me thru the glass..I was so touched that he made all his way to Changi Hospital to see me..Thank Khai..=) Then my ex-bf frends came down too..They help him with his bike and keep us accompany..I was afraid to called my parents..I scared get scolding or my dad will wack me..However,I did tell my mum coz my best buddy(Mas) she advise me..Luckly they was not angry just that they worried for me..

Went for X-ray..Luck there wasn't any fractres or broken bones...I was glad that I able to walk and stand..If really my bones is broke,I surely duno what to do..I think I rather die than suffered and feel torturing..When in operation room,oK this is the moment I waiting for..My heart pump very fast coz is my first time going to stich..=/ Well,i was given a choice to stick now and i can go home but is will be very pain or admitted in hospital and alot of process need to be done..So i choice to suffered in pain and recover faster too..Ah..!!!So scary in the opearation room..I told myself mind over body and be strong..Well,i cant really feel the stiches but some parts i able to feel..Like sewing clothes..Ok,the stiches was 7cm and the wound is deep too.. Overall outcome,i made it and gosh alot of blood lah..I see want to faint.Throughout the incident,my ex-bf was with me..He helped me alot and thanx for be there for me..

We took a taxi home and he send me back home...Reached home ard 5am.My mum and him was talking..I know my ex-bf feel sorry and stupid of himself..He felt very guitly and in wrong...He was so sad and in pain see me in that condition...He was totally worried with me,his bike and his condition too...He also worried to face my parents...But he agree to bear the responsibility.Well, supposed to be a pleasant day for us but turn up an accident.Anyway thnx to god i'm still alive..I duno what happened if I'm dead...Really I was so scared and panic..I tot that it will be the end of me..I'm glad i'm still alive.

2006-06-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

Yawn... Not sleepy or tired but juz felt damn sian.. Haiz!!! -_-" Just reached home from school.. Yeah back to school..First day of new semenster..Weee!!!Met my beloved frends (Fiona, Patrick,Reuben,Daniel,Amalina,Victor and Edward) Sorry if i miss out a few name..Miss and Love them so much..Haha!!!Hang out awhile at the swimming pool and we talk non stop.. Haha!!!Well,we also duno why we choose to hang out at swimming pool instead of other better places in the school compound.. In class as usual have to pay attention and take notes..Good Girl mah.. Today like no time to play or slack in class ah..Like have to focus and juz pay attention but than still get to slack for 1hr..=) Haha..Haiz,alot of projects and assignment is coming up ah...All quenening up leh...So loaded and I'm tired with it..But than good for me lah coz no paper or exam for this semester..Just base on my projects,artefacts and assigments which is more tidious and challening..

Ok,Duno why I miss school so much...Maybe not miss the school lah..The frends ah..Haha..I want to be a secondary student ah.. Tertiary student is fun lah but like so many responsiblity and things I have to cope with..Must be independence and well disciplined..Quite tiring ah.. School from 8am-1.30pm..Supposely end at 4pm but than my lecturer not feeling well so end early..So poor thing ya.Ok,straight after school end go home straight..Didnt join my gang hang out at orchard..They going orchard to shop and have dinner together but sorry I cant join coz I need a break and enough rest coz my schedule quite tight.Furthermore I'm working later at 6pm-12.30am(closing)..Actually suppose to start at 5pm but than I change to 6pm..Just feel like starting work late and want to rest..Don have enough rest yet since after the specialist course phase 1..=( oK,back doing my revision and studies..Need to start my projects,assignments and start prepare my artefacts stuffs soon..Man!!!busy busy busy..So busy...Argh!!!

On,25/6/06 (sun) was just not my day...I was not in a mood to work..But I had no choice..I have to work coz very difficult to find a replacement..Duno why lah I was not in a mood to work..Is like my body at work but my soul is somewhere...Just not myself in work...Then 1 + 1 closing.. That's make me more no mood lah...Hello 1 staffs close everything???Nuts or what!!!Haiz...what the hell..But luckly some of the staffs extend and help out..Thanx guys...I really apprecaite it..=) Well,i don want and wish to bring the prob in work but than I also duno why suddenly the prob appeared...I was totally break down in work...I cant overcome myself till my fever came back and I fall sick..My temperature was high and I got a bad headache too...I felt so weak and I told myself to endure and be strong..However,I'm glad I able to endure and be strong..I was so worried that I unable to handle and collapse anytime coz my version was blur too..Anyway,Thnx I'm orite..=)

2006-06-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!!!So happy today off day...Hahaha!!!Can slack the whole day at home..Guess what???Today at home,I really felt like heaven and great coz the whole day I sleep only..=) Seldom get to sleep whole day and have this sleeping paradise feeling..Weee!!!Well,suppose to go down J8 to collect my black pants from 77th Street but than I'm too lazy to go out of the house..Just want to slack in my bed so didnt collect it...Woke up at 7pm than go bath and do my projects till now.. Kind off bored and almost everyday do the old same things...School starting soon and need to do well time management.Haiz..Still need to study and revise.Cant neglect my studies man..Well, duno I can cope and help anot..Well,see how want back to school...FINAL YEAR project and assignment is approaching soon..Cant wait for it...!!!Whaha..

Ok,my whole body is aching and in pain..Man,I need a massage..Anyone???Ok,I like so busy man...Like no time to hang out and spend time with my friends...Always busy with my school stuffs and work..Only this two I know..Guess have to do a good time managment already..Cant neglect my friends too coz they are very precious to me..Miss all the fun and crazy we have..I just wish to me a kid back..That is in possible..

Orite,on 23/6/06 is a bad day and memory for me...Well,I don wish to talk about it anymore but I roughly can said that I'm deeply sorry and is my fault..I don mean to do all this and end up to be happened like this.I just hope everything goes fine and smoothly..I know everything had end and stop here.I ready and prepare to face all this..Hope we are still friends and not enermy..I cant bear to loss a friend..Loss one is enough for me and I'm felt so hurt and in pain coz used to be my love ones..Well,I just wish that everything will turn orite and we can be happy back agian like last time...

2006-06-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SYAZA!!!=)

Well,sorry didnt published your birthday on the date itself on my blog.So long than blog coz too busy and tired with a lot of stuffs..Anyway,nice knowing and be with you...Thank for everything and hope you stay happy always..

Ok..Welcome come back home..Haha...Came back from 2days ago. What a tiring and shagged day for me..Ok,the camp was 3days 2night..Haha,the camp was fun and I LOVED IT!!!Orite,a lots of stuffs cock up and kind off in the mess..But than we still able to end on time and hit the target..Is like althought cock up,the camp is still moving smoothly and all of us having fun..The camp was happening and the instructors are crazy too..Haha!!!We play alot and crack jokes alot lah..However we did quarrl and there's some missunderstanding argument...Like the matter is small than we blow off..Anyway,I'm sorry if I blow or burst off to whoever...I know I have a bad temper but I'm changing and trying to control too..

The first day of camp in the afternoon,I remembered clearer that I fuck and screwed the west cadets...Then followed by sea cadets..Hahaha!!!!Feel so GREAT get to screwed their asses and fuck them up size down.. I very good one don scold cadets or what but than the cadets asked for it so I gave it to them..I can be a angel man but don even regard if happen I turn into a devil coz no one can stop me..

Haha...the camp is like chalet man..We instructors wow!!!Like heaven for us...We play games lah,can do what we want,no one stop us..so cool rite.. Hahaha..Then enjoy taking pictures..=) Well,for this camp,i was the overall incharge..I find this camp is a successful for me although is like in the mess..Haha..but is fun lah with all the cock up and mess..

Anyway,I would like to THANK all those instructors who help out for this camp..You guys rox man!!!Love you guys..A BIG THANK YOU for all your hard work and effort..I really appreciate it..Hope we still continue keep in touch ya...Continue our bonding!!!NCC ROX!!!=)

I learn alot of stuffs and differents things in this camp..Although the sea and land are diff in beret colour, we are still as one NCC and Rox!!!

Differences between the central and sea:

Sea spec course

Told cadet to move fast,still dragged the boots

clts play and crack jokes in front of cadets.haha!!!

clts were nice and understanding

alot of slacking time

play more than work (playful) but turn up to be success

debrief: time to tell ghost story.haha!!!

Central spec course

Told cadets more fast,they did

clts were strict with cadtes

clts damn garang and scary

only those super senior have time to slack

work more play less (No fun) but turn up to be success

debrief: shooting seesion

Here are some of the pictures:
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HAPPY INSTRUCTORS...=)

INSTRUCTOR GROUP PHOTO!!!

1...2..3...CHESSE!!=D

Orite..Here is all my awards...HAHA!!!;P

2006-06-18T13:37:00.000+08:00

Haiz...I'm sick..Got fever..I'm a SICK CHICKEN!!!My fever keep on and off..Then mouth got ulcer and my tongue is damn pain..Got ucler on my tongue and crack..Haiz,so torturing and in pain..My head so pain.. Can feel like elephant sitting on my head..=/ Then now my neck is pain and cant even turn to the left or right..Body aching..Err...=( My mum also sick...oK,great mother and daughter SICK!!!

This few days I super damn busy with works,projects,school stuffs and camp stuffs..Packed like hell...Ok,later at 8pm need to book in camp..Got specialist course for 3days 2night..Ok,a lot of things need to do...Coz I'm incharge of the camp and need to run the camp smoothly...Hopefully this camp is a successful and happening..

Orite...Last night supposed to go club momo to visit our dear RSM,Christoper Bryan Di Silva but he left already...His job is a bouncher..Haha..Ncc RSM do bouncher???But than we didnt went club momo..We went somewhere to makan...Well,i don really like clubbing and all this...I go also to visit RSM and make this first and the last time..Maybe not my kind and type..Uncle Skubhir sorry if yesterday I attitude or unlike myself...Very sorry..

Hmm...Next week I duno how is my schedule like..I think I going to be damn busy and die also..Like damn pack..I will attached to Century Square 2-3 weeks for my PMS attachment.. Then still have to work at outlet..=/ Ok..I would like to apologise to my frends that I unable to spend time with them..I very sorry..I promise after all this attachment and camps,I will spend time with you all..School also starting soon...Have to enjoy and spend my time with my frends before back to school..oK, projects and assignment also coming in soon...Sian..My holiday like not holiday leh..Haiz..

Anyway,congrate to my elder sister coz she gave birth a BABY GIRL!!!Message from her: Safely given birth at 12.14pm 18/6/06 at KKH.Bed 4 ward 32..Ok,i feel so old already..I just 19years old leh..Then now become auntie..Ok,but my nephew and niece called me MUMMY LANGE!!!=D Weee...Haha!!!Oklah,got going..Take carez!Cheerz!=D

2006-06-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

Great!!!Today at work is like shit!!!All the staffs cant work and worst till some staffs didnt turn up for work...Ok,left Catherine(Asst Manger) and I and the outlet..Fiqah when J8k to open the store coz Hui yun sick..Lucky Syafiq able to work at 11am but than he unable to work closing..So have to find replacement...Ok,kinda busy today...So far sales was good..Ok,today working with Cat and Lionel was fun lah...Coz we crapped a lot and crack jokes..They really treated me like manager instead of a barista..I was piss off with Syafiq coz he cant wait to go home and don even want to throw rubbish...Give excuses and all that..Ok,fine I just ignore and kept quiet than he go throw..

Log off at 5pm but than dragged till 5.15pm..Quickly change and get ready for my supernumerary gathering..Cat and I left the outlet together..Meet up my junior,yati and Fizah..Orite the gathering was fun..Haha,as usual got food to eat and I'm looking forward for thew BBQ..Hehe...Like heaven again...Whaha!!!oK,then have some performance...oK,i got a sore throat right now and falling sick..Temperature was high and hot..Hopefully it recover soon ah..Reached home ard 10.30pm and discovered no one was at home..So soundly and great!!!Change to my PT kit and when for a run...Ok,Just feel like running to reduce my body temperature..Haha..

Ok,got scolded and nagged by my mum for staying late at night and dont have enough rest...Then I kind off got eyeback and she not happy...Nag nag nag!!!Haha..I put eary grey on my eyes to make the eyeback reduce...Ok,my mum buying some cucumber and those stuffs to get rid my eyeback..Haha...

Here are some of the pictures:

For more photos visit: http://fizzybeanz.spaces.msn.com

Good frends...=)

Lange and Daniel...My ex-crush..Daniel Hu..=)

Yeah...Jamming time..Oh,miss my baby guitar so much..When can I go back jamming anf play with my baby????Hmm...

Happy Supernumerary...=)

2006-06-16T03:33:00.000+08:00

Orite..Felt hungry and weather very cold coz raining heavily...Ate Snickers Cruncher and drank a Pokka Green Tea..Full already..Now is 2.30am and I still not sleeping yet..Later still working morning at 9am-5pm..Reached home not long ago from work.. Working closing with Agnes(OM),Syaza and Azim..Today kind off a busy day...Closing also late and finish late...Tiring day..A lot of stuffs need to do and prepare..

Woke up ard 12.15pm...Get ready and meet mei at Bugis..Ok,great I was late again..As usual lah duno what's wrong with me..Cant be on time when meet frends..Actually I can be early but than I forgot to bring my wallet and left it at home so go all the way home and took it...Haiz,took a taxi down to bugis..Ok,What the F**K...Stupid driver drive so bloody slow and worst thing didnt alight me at the except location..I was damn bloody piss off and mad man!!!Just feel like going out off the taxi without paying it but I didnt coz I was busy on the fone..I did like this before in the past lah but now never already..Maybe waiting for the day which unlucky driver lah..Haha!!! Accompany my mei go cut her hair..Anyway,Nice hairstyle ya mei..=) It suited you..But mine nicer and better..Whaha!!!;P

Ok,rush down to CBTL HQ for my PSM promotion interview..Ok,tot I was late but I reached on time and early by 1min..Haha..That's considered lucky..=) I duno why suddenly I felt so scared and nervous..Can feel my heart pumping very fast and panic..Maybe is my first time interview very formal???Well,who knows rite..Anyway,I'm happy I pass the interview and I'm promoted to PSM..=) Sian ah have to go for PSM training for 2-3 weeks..Haiz..Ok,now I already complete my mission and I have to strive hard and aim my other goals..

2006-06-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

Wah!!!So wonderful and felt great woke up at 1.30pm..Haha,damn late rite???Actually can sleep somemore and wake up late somemore but than Wati called me ah..Then I cant sleep back and furthermore meeting my secondary school frends at 2.30pm...Felt piss off and angry coz I'm sleeping soundly and peacefully people called and disturb my sleep..Haiz..But nvm lah..Not the first time this happened.ARGH!!!

Hahaha...felt so damn lazy and tired to get off from my bed.So continue slacking and fall asleep. GOSH!!!I supposed to meet my frends lah than I was late...Haha!!!As usual I took my own sweet time get prepare..oK,I was so vain lah...Took so long to get ready.Haha!!!Vain pod!!!Great, my frends still at Ang Mo Kio so I meet them at Ang Mo Kio..Then we wait for Chiun Kiong.. Chey,Though I was late but I'm not lor is Chiun Kiong..*Abish* Haha...We took bus 13 and the journal damn long lah.Bored leh but lucky I got my music keep me accompany.Weee!!!=) Then my mei called...Ok,reached East Coast,I when Paris Ris pick her up and when Simei awhile meet her friend,Joy...Hang out with Joy awhile than we went East Coast..

Haha...GOSH!!!Happening man!!!So happy saw so many of my secondary friends turned up for this gathering.Actually this gathering considered a success and the best + happening gathering.I LOVE IT!!!Anyway,Thnx guys..You guys ROX and LOVE you guys always!!!=) BLESSING ROX!!!MUACKZ!!!Do keep in touch ya..Cheerz!Well,as usual I'm the only malay always for any outting,gathering or function lah...I'm the odd one but not left out one..HAHAHA!!!Whenever they speak chinese and I don understand,I will always tell them to speak english..Eh,guys sorry hor..Hehe.Most of the time I understand lah what they talking but when I'm lost I start asking.

Haiz,I also felt angry,piss off and sad coz my bestfriends never come..They always like that.. Every outting or etc sure got reasons one not to turn up..Fed up sia..Don even wish to make an effort lor & they sometimes bastard me lah.Haiz,What sia they all..This called BESTFRIENDS meh???Frankly speaking lah,I enjoy being with this group of friends instead of my bestfriends lah..I no regreds lah coz I have enough of their non sense.. Well,the last time I met my bestfriends(Natz and Ruz) was year 2004 Graduation Night..That was long ago and after that got gathering they never come..How I wish they read my entry and let them feel bad about it!!!ARGH!!!

Anyway..Who cares lah they didnt turn up..I enjoy myself and have fun with the rest I happy already..Really have fun lah although we didnt spend that much time with each other..Haha, yumyum!!!I LOVE BBQ!!!Coz get to eat...Weee!!!Haha...I think I made my mei piss off ah..Coz I kept eating non stop..Then even her shared I go and eat..Haha!!!So ya hungry ah..I strong eater mah..*Smile* Love bbq man..FOOD!FOOD!FOOD!~Yummy~Whaha...

Here are some of the pictures:

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Blessing Girls..ROX!!!Ooo..Who is that cute and chio girl wearing shaded???Whaha..;P

Yeah!!!Here are the Boys..Damn they looked much handsome and better now unlike secondary time..So ewww..Turn the girls off..Hahaha!!!

HAPPY FAMILY!!!YEAH!!!WEE!!! =D

Heng Jiong(Loi), Filbert(Filly),Farah(Lange) and Chin Hui(Meow) Haha...Blessing Rules..Love you people..=D

Oh...whose that chio bu,cool and funky person???Hahaha!!!That's me!...Lange...Yum!Yum!Busy mamam ah..Haha!!!

Orite..At last there a picture of me and my mei..=) 1...2...3..Cheese!!!*Smilez*=D

Hmm???What is she smiling at???Haha..so curious..Hehe!!! ;P

Orite,around 9pm plus most of my friends left already...But some stay till damn late like 2am???Well,my mei and I left around 10pm. Ok,send her home than I made my way home...Reached home around 11.45pm...Go do my laundry and spring cleaning my room..Anyway,Sorry guys I didnt stay till late with you guys...Next time ok?=) I hang out and spend time more with you all..I kept my words..Furthermore I go home ealry coz working the next day so need energy. Hope you guys understand...=) Cheerz!Miss and love you Blessing!!!

2006-06-12T03:58:00.000+08:00

Orite just reached home from work...Hmm,I'am the last one to send home man..Haiz,sian man..Last so bored and loneIy no one keep me accompany and talk to me..Hopefully able to get my driving license as soon as possible but don think is possible..Maybe have to wait 1 more year coz i'm kind off broke right now..=( Need to save up again..

Ok,working with Lionel(PSM),Syaza and Aliff...Well,today not that busy..Like no kick when work..Time also fly not so fast..Today nuthing much happened to work just that in the evening this irritating and idiotic customer really turn me off and spoil my day..Coz she told me she want this cake and i took for her than she said not that cake so she want to change than I change.Then she place her order already.When the order is done she say she never order this..Is like i already repeat my order 2 times and make it clear to her..I fed up and piss off than I told Lionel to take over me as cashier..Haiz,kind off sad coz my girlfrend(Mas) going home ah...Well,don thk she know I sad coz my face never tells.I really miss working with her and be with her.Is like we both long time nv work together already and I really miss the fun and joy we have togetehr. When can we both always work together???I totally fed up and fucking piss off coz not even one day my schedule same shift as her lah..Hopefully my dream come true ah.I'm dieing working with her.

Fidaae(adik) came down outlet to check his schedule.Ok, chat awhile with him about the upcoming camp...During closing paul and one more guy from singapore idol was at our outlet.. Well,don give a fuck or damn lah...Coz i'm not interested at all with all this minny winny idiol lah..So i just continue do my closing..

Bryan from Forum and Lange...I miss working with Bryan..Hope I able to atatch Forum or Bryan attach J8..Hehehe..

Haha...That is Catherine(Asst manager)..I love working with her coz she is fun.I duno why when I work with her I like happy..She really make my day..Haha,man she really turn me off man wearing that white bermudas..Haha..we kept laughing and teasing her non stop when saw her wearing that bermudas..Hehe..

Haiz...I duno whether I'm really ready for relationship.I scared to be hurt again and be in pain...I hate to be in this situation..Like what I say:"I may look strong but when come to relationship/friendship I will be weak." Kind off sad about that..Try to change but cant.Maybe that is my character and weak point. Well,Aliff have a crush on me but I don have..I treated him as my close frend. Maybe I'm too nice or what lah than he got the wrong intention on me..

Anyway,its ok lah..Coz i very nice to everyone and always give in one.. However,I duno why I gave him a cold shoulder but I'm not avoding him..I can sense and feel that I force myself to be harsh to him..oK,I cant bear to see the way i treated him ah..So bad of me so I talk to him nicely lah..I told him that can we be close frends?Its ok you had a crush or etc on be but can we be frends?Coz I don want to hurt you and I'm not ready to have relationship yet..Furthermore I won go for guys who is younger than me..That's my person..No one can change me!!! I told him also its ok for him to continue care and love me but not too the extreme coz I don want him to hurt himself and furthermore I felt very uncomfortable and uneasy ah..I don like guys who so care and love me so so so much ah..I will get so eww and uncomfortable coz just a boyfriend not husband or engage..But that if the guy I really love I don mind lah even does moshy moshy stuffs.

Well,I know that I made him down and dissapointed.I'm sorry...Is better I tell him now rather than I keep to myself and tell him at the later stage which is more worst...I just hope we can be close frends again and be like last time.Ok,now another guy crush me..My poly frend,patrick.. Well,he like me since last year...Ok,but I reject and be frends wif him coz that time I'm attached and really loyal to one..Then he did said me a lot of time that ques but I told him is better we be frends..He is a very understanding,good looking,wealthy,loving and nice guy but I duno why my feeling for him is not there..So is best he move on..Maybe it take time for him to forget me..I don mind the hug or kiss he gave me lah coz that's all my guys or gals frends do to me..But not french kiss lah..Is juz a frend hug and kiss..=) I glad he still be frend with me..Anyway,thnx for your care,concern and love towards me..I really appreciate it.

Ok,now I'm confused???I told myself I'm not ready for relationship but I have a crush on Adam. I don really know what I want lah...My percenatge for him getting higher and my feeling for him getting deeper when days goes by..His smile really melt me..When I see him,I very happy and my heart pump faster.. Hehe..But overall,I still able to face him and act nuthing happen.Haha!!!Last time everynite we both used to msg but now often coz I'm too busy...Then went we msg,I can sense and feel that the way we msg isnt like a frend..We sometimes msg those moshy stuffs and the way we msg like lovers..I try not to go too far or beyond the limit..I have to get to now him well and all that before i move to the nxt stage..I duno what so special about him till I have a crush on him..Maybe his heart and personality make me have a crush on him.He is a very nice and understanding person..That's how I have a crush on my pervious ex..I hope that we both able to keep in touch..Right now I missing him. Hope to see him around and spend more time with him...

If happen he drop by my blog and read this entry,I hope nuthing bad things happen...Just hope this go smoothly and fine..If not its ok we be close friends..=) Cheerz!

2006-06-11T14:28:00.000+08:00

Here are some of the pictures during the Specialist Course 2006...

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TRAINFIRE!!!

[Quddus,Ridzman,Rahman,Khairi and Fidaae]

INSTRUSTORS!!!YOU GUYS ROX!!!

1WO Bryan Christoper Di Silva (SM NCC) and the Sea CLTs

S/CLT FARAH SARA LANGE

Prize winner awared to S/CLT Lange..Whaha!!! ;P

Part C cadets..Mixture of Sea and Land(central) cadets during the specialist course

2006-06-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

Ah..very pain..=( got ucler grew in my mouth..Is huge and hurts a lot..Haiz,didnt drink plenty of water during the camp that's why turn up like this...Orite,what a tiring and super shagged day.. Today just get back home..Being in camp for 3days..Like so fast the time fly..How wonderful if the camp is longer..The camp was fun and make new frends.Have bonding with other element and learn new stuffs.

Ok,the camp was fun and I able to show my learnship skill..I learn new stuffs and the camp is happening..=) My post was a 2ic..Is the second biggest in the camp and i'm the assitant to the oic (big boss).Wah,got 2ic post not bad..Coz able to slack and at the same time learn..The best part can command and order people order..Yeah!!!Hehe...First night before cadets report to camp,we have to prepare a lot of admin stuffs.Logistic have to settle with the bunks,ration and the other stuffs.Ok,my first night in camp I slept early at 11.30pm coz damn tired ah..Normally,i slept ard 3am or later.. Even at home...Haha..Then second nite azim,fidaae and I book out awhile and grabbed some food for the rest..Supposed to attend for ARR but we didnt coz book in back late and waited outside the bunk for the rest.Settle some admin stuffs and I'm too tired to do it..So slack around and supposed to play snooker with fidaae at the mess room,but too tired to went there and furhtermore too many people in the room so go and sleep..Haha,sory adik..=)

Haha...a lot of the cadets talk about my hair.."S/CLT Lange have a cool and stylish hairstyle.. Like her hair..Ma'am Farah have a nice hairsyle.She look cute and cool."Haha!!!In the apprasel mostly the cadets wrote about my hair.Crapped!!!!~Yeah~!!!I did screw some cadets ass.. Haha!!!Espcially the sea cadets..Damn feel so good and great get to scold and fuck them up size down..The first day of the camp,I was damn like a angel and good..Didnt scold and interact with the cadets..The second day than I start showing my true color coz my OIC (Ridzman,my cousin) hand over to me.

Well,i felt like i going for a chalet instead of a camp..Man!!!Like heaven and feel so great being a instructor!Can do what we want and anything...No one stop us!!!=) But when things cock up that's it!!!We are dead and get the fucking and shit from higher officers...This camp i took it as a chalet..We can book in and out..oK,I felt I'm gaining weight after the camp..Haha..keep eating snacks and order outside food instead of eating camp food which is gross and Eww..I cant stand and eat the food in the styrofoam.Haha..we have cheesecake,waffle cereals,coke,green tea, chocolates,potato chips and etc...Wee..!!!=) Now have to reduce weight and go back training lor..Lets have intensive PT!!!

I miss the fun and laughter during the camp...Miss the crazy,suffered and etc that we gone thru together..Hope we able to meet up and work together again...Thnx for helping and running the camp as one family..=) you guys rox!!!Hope to see you guys around again.On the other hand,I was very happy to see my ncc family..At least they able to make it for this camp..Thnx Ridzman (Oic), Tasha (Pc),Khairi (Rsm),Fidaae (Oic Log) and Azim (Alpha OC)..Love you guys always..=) Keep in touch and see you in phase 2..Cheerz!

2006-06-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

YAWN!!!Tired sia...Work non stop..=( Then still got to book in for camps.. Last nite full shift than today full shift again but luckily till 8pm only..Ok,last nite closing and is my fault slept till damn late at night around 5.30am. Chatting on fone with my frend coz got problems and I be there for my frend.Working opening at 7am and work up 6am..Then got difficultly wake up and when report to work like half dead!!! I felt totally blur like sotong and zombia during work...I duno what I'm doing and talk..Haha.. Crapped!!!

During my break I slept for 45min..Damn so shiok and heaven man..Haha!!!Opps over short by 15min to report back to work..Anyway,who cares..Catherine(Asst Manager) never scold mah..She understand..Furthermore she won scold one..=) Today work so slack and not busy at all..Like so fun and relaxing man..All of us can slack around..Slackers..Hehe..

Well,alot of things happened in work ah..Like so sudden change and bad things happened lah..Haiz,very sad and dissapointed about it..Then long time never blog and got so many things happened..Like so many ah..Till duno what to say..Just don feel that is not a right time for me to shoot and my opinions..Hmm,I got eye back lor..Not enough sleep so Catherine told me to bring back Eary Grey used tea and place at my eyes back..Haha..

2006-06-05T03:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!!So happy...This is the time and moment I waiting for so long...
Firstly I would like to welcome back Sukhir(Uncle)from KL..He went that for a game..Long time never see him lor.. Very miss him sia....>.<

WELCOME BACK UNCLE SUKHIR...HOORAY!!!=)

I did take good care for the Ncc Family but just that we dont have time to hang out or spend time together coz some having exam period and busy with other stuffs..Well,I hope there's a next family outting or gathering..Miss the fun,sweet and happiness memories...

Suppose to went down Orchard alone and end up Meet up my poly frend(Patrick,Fiona,Daniel,Amalina,Reuben,Victor and Edward) at Orchard..

When Wheelock place to collect Coldplay tickets..=) Hahaha..They keep complaining I didnt spent time. Always busy with my own stuffs and no time for them.. Anyway...Thnx guys for the outting just now.Although it was a short outting coz got work at 6pm-12.30(closing),I still have fun and enjoy being with you guys..You guys ROX and LOVE YOU GUYS ALWAYS!!!Muackz..=) Oh ya..thnx for the hugs and kisses ya..So sweet of you people..

Here's the tickets to watch Coldplay..YEAH!!!WEEE!!!!Coldplay here I come..Wahaha..

Orite...damn boring lah have to report to work at 6pm..But than I'm happy coz my mei is working..=) So won be bored and she make my day. Today I like very slack in work leh...Maybe tired?Sleeply?Nah..none the above..Haha!!!I also duno why maybe just want to slack..YEAH!!!We end closing at 11.45pm which is super doper easier..Very happy..Coz get to rest..=) Hope next time closing able to hit this timing again..Hehe..Oh ya,Adam called the outlet to find me coz he cant get thru my hp...Haha, he called to check his schedule and at the same time call to chat with me..But we didnt chat that long coz busy closing ah and want to finish fast..What a waste but nvm take a slow step..=)

Hmm...have this funny feeling..But duno how to express it..Just hope that everything goes fine and smoothly...Haha..Ok,got going need to do my school stuffs and get ready for school soon..Err..Take carez!=)

2006-06-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

Felt so happy today coz get to spend time with my parents..=) When swensen to have lunch and shop at town..Yum yum!!!Nice and delicious food...Wee..so happy!!!Haha!!!It been a long time I never spend time with them coz being busy with my stuffs and my frends.So this is the time I get to be with them..However,I would like to apologise to my poly frends and NCC frends coz didnt went out with you people..Today suppose to meet my NCC frends 2.30pm at city hall and 6pm meet my poly frends at Orchard..Is like I fully booked lah.. Sorry didnt guys you people..

Yeah!!! I can feel the family love and bonding..In the past,I don even have this feeling but now I able to feel it slowly..Kind off sad rite.Now than can feel...I just not a family type..I more into career,studies,my frends and my love ones (for time being single coz too busy and want to enjoy my life).Then neglect my family...Ok,after lunch we shop and walk around at city hall..Then went bugis and orchard..I feeling unwell actually..Like headache and feel like vomitting suddenly..Maybe not enough rest and sleep..

HAPPY ANNIVERYSARY MUMMY AND DADDY!!!

MY BELOVED MUMMY AND DADDY!!!LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!=)

Ok...When taka with my mum coz she want to buy bag...Forever buy bag!BAG!BAG!BAG!HAHA..Then went down NAC Coffee Bean to visit Sasha(Asst Manager)..She used to be J8 Asst manager but transfered to NAC..Chat and spend time with her awhile..Then went Paragon to buy my new handphone..WEEEE....=)

N91--> The phone that want and I got It!!!

MY NEW BABY!!!!BABY!!!BABY!!!YES AT LAST I GOT MY BELOVED BABY!!!HOORAY!!!!

GUESS WHAT???? GOT A FREE TICKET TO WATCH LIVE COLDPLAY!!!DAMN COOL MAN!!!

..Luckly didnt buy the ticket which is expensive lah..Hehe..Yeah,can go and watch it..

oK,That's me...-LANGE- Super doper vain pod!!! Whaha..

2006-06-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!WEEE!!!HAHA!!! At last is Friday..So happy...oK,damn sleeply and tired woke up at 6am coz working 7am-3pm(opening) with Agnes..I was afraid that I cant wake up or overslept to work coz damn tired and body so shagged..Then suddenly i woke up at 4.30am and go back to sleep..Haha...

Orite all the morning staffs was late for work today...Luckily not that busy and both of us able to handle the store smoothly..=) Big boss cant down store awhile...oK,today working with Syaza, Kayve and Keith...Kind off slack today..Agnes taught me how to cash out and hand over shift...Next shift she will let me do it..So I'm learning ya...Well,suppose got dragon boat training today but than last min postpone next thur and fri...So didnt go for training..Have dinner with Catherine(AM) and Syaza...Then went home but Cat have to report back to work...Feel so sleeply and lazy...Want to sleep.. -_- zzZ

Reached home at 9.45pm...Do my laundy and talk to my mum abt handphone...Haha...We check out the prices and etc together on the computer...Yeah!!!Getting my dream handphone soon.. N91..WEE!!!Then teach her some gaming that I did my past semenster and projects...Then chat awhile...Ya,as usual sit infront of my computer and continue doing my school work and studying. That's is a job of a student and always my routine...*Sigh* Well..tml off lor..so cant wake up late and rest more....=)

2006-06-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm....I felt so different today..Feel like more mature and much stronger...I happy that I can feel I'm moving on and able to forget the past slowly..Well,it really takes a long period of time for me to forget her...Just hope that I able to get over with it...But than I still miss and love her.. Haiz,so stubborn and stupid of me..Just wish that all this I able to get over with it and have a brand new life! =)

Busy working this few weeks...Then school also like so little days need to go..Kind off bored.. Today working at J8k from 10am-4pm...Then catherine(AM) don let me go off..Want me stay and keep her accompany..Well,I'm sorry Cat..Next time ok???I kinda busy with my stuffs.Hmm,not so busy and nuthing much I can do coz Agnes (OM) on duty at J8..Big boss suppose to come down store today but didnt turn up.Ok, suppose to go school today but than last min never go..Coz majority of my classmates not going and futhermore my lanyard is with Patrick..So he scanned for me..Hehe..THANK YOU PATRICK!!!MUACKZ!>.< My frends just came down school to scan their lanyard and when to hit the pool..We kind off skip for lesson..Today lesson just a LAME LECTURE..VERY BORING..Wasting our time there so we rather choose not to go..One for all,All for one!!!UNITED!!!HAHAHA.. Well,hopefully nuthing happen to us when we come back school...Err..

Yeah..reached home early around 11pm...Haha..consider early and not bad ok..Do my laundry and spring cleaning..Then Able to rest and spend time with my family...That is what I'm looking forward too..=) Cracked some jokes with my parents coz I'm BORED!!!Ok,don understand why my siblings cant get along with me.. Simple they just JEALOUS with me lah..Coz I'm THE BEST AND BETTER...HAHA!!!Ok,I'm bored right now!!!Hmm,orite do my projects to keep me accompany..Got going..Take carez...Cheerz!=)

2006-05-29T02:44:00.000+08:00

Right now is 2.00am..Just reached home from work an hour ago..As usual doing my project and studying at this time always..Haha..Used to it since young.I'm hungry rite now and hunting for food in the kitchen.. Hehe..Grabbed some crackes and biscuit but than not full so spread some nutella on a slice of bread.Still hungry go heat up curry puffs.Haha!!!ARGH!!!Tiring day!!!My whole body so shagged and muscle is aching..So many things need to close man..Wah,first time I close service till my whole hair is wet and I'm sweat like hell..My sexy, beautiful and cool hair turn into disaster and it soaked with my sweat.That's is gross..Eww.. Haha!!

Ok,was so surprise we able to finish early..Coz it seems that we unable to finish closing on time..That was great!!!=) Today at work kinda boring coz Agnes(OM) working closing cant play alot and make alot of noise later she scold..That's what she always do..Scold people only she know..I will prove to her when I become PSM,I can control my staffs better than her and make my staffs working more lifely and happening during my shift..*MARK MY WORD!!*=) However,when she left the store for smoke break,GENG GENG GENG!!!Haha...we start playing and make the place happening..Weee..

Hmm...Later need to wake up at 7am...Got school at 8am-3pm..Then after that got work at 5pm-12.30am(closing) with Agnes(OM) somemore..Wahlao..Don care her ah...She scold or nag I just do my own stuffs ah.Haha!!!Working with Aliff, Syaza(my mei) and Gan Jun.Haiz...my school timetable so boring coz mostly lesson in the afternoon or evening..Morning lesson so little..Tired and sleeply sia like that...But nvm lah only need to go school for 3 days..Hehehe...=) Ok,I'm still doing my project and assignment..Hahaha...As usual like never ending...

2006-05-28T15:49:00.000+08:00

Yawn!!!Haiz...juz woke up and the time now is 3.30pm..What a tiring day..Ok,I still feeling sleeply,tired and my body felt so shagged..Cant sleep that long coz still have to report to work at 5pm-12.30am(closing)..*Haizz..* Here go again a tiring working day...Stock take today and I hate to work during stock take..Alot of stuffs need to do and I always being shoot to do stock take..Very unfair and sad lah..Cant wait for Mas(my dear),Syah and Syawan to become $4.20 staffs so more manpower..Ok,i duno how work will be like later...Coz i don thk my body can take it..Guess I have to endure and be strong.. My hubby went in NS already and never work anymore..So sad left the wifey alone here and get bullied..Hmm..Hopefully today can finish closing early ah..Need to study and do project..Burn mid night oil.. -_-

Projects keep coming in...Damn!!!Left a few more hours need to report to work and I don feel like moving at all..Doing my e-learning and some assignment..Revising and studying..Ok,june is approaching...Have to face the battle and challening stuffs... Wee...school holiday approaching too but than is don seem holiday to me coz busy wif my final year and all other stuffs...Ok,Dragon boat training is out...Haiz,have to go back for training and loss weight..Training schedule very tide and tidious..Haiz,have to do time management and cope with my stuffs..

Ncc camps coming soon..So many camps and activies I have to go..But duno want to go anot..Coz like very tight..Duno can cope with it..For what I noe I'm going of the camps..Haha..I miss camps so much...Want to start srew the cadets ass and F**k them up-side-down..Haha!!!So evil and cruel..But than I don thk I will do it coz see how my mood during the camp lah...=) Hmm,duno want to go back Presbyterian High sch(Ex sec sch) anot..Coz Ms seh(Co) called and message me to come back the unit...They really need my help and improve the unit...Haiz,I still thinking about it..If can I want too but I don want to see my ex mei there..Well,I just don want to see her.Actually I can go back the unit and help but becoz of she is still around,I feel uneasy and no mood to go back..Maybe wait for her to ORD than I come back and help the unit..Just want to forget the past but trying too forget but is still stucked in my thick skull..Haiz..

2006-05-28T03:16:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!Bloody Hell!!!!HATE IT!!!Why my life so sucky???SUCK!!!FUCK!!!Received a called from my lecturer..As usual money wise..Hate it man!!!Hate my course cause use alot of money and I'm broke!!!However I still love and like to be in school of design.Haiz..Please be patient can..I'm here trying and struggling to save up and stop chasing me lah..I know when to pay up..Anyway,thnx to my frends (Patrick,Fiona and Victor) for helping me...I really appreciate it..

Well..working closing from 5pm-1.30am today..But than I called Khai(Asst manager) whether can report at 5.30pm..Actually the reason is not got wedding function lah is that I'm tired and sleeply so I wanted to have a long nap lah...Sorry I lied coz I want to sleep longer..Hehe..Then my hp keep ringing and beeping..ARGH!!!!Piss off..I hate it when I'm sleeping people keep disturbing me..No peace man..When I'm busy sleeping people always keep disturbing and intrupting my sleep..Then Syaza(my mei) called me and I was sleeping lah..Err..Cant sleep back so report to work at 5pm..Meet up Syaza and joy(her frend) awhile than report to work..
(Hope no hard feeling ya my frends who message or called me..I just telling the truth.)

Today working was great and fun!!!Haha..Very busy and noisy lah...Mostly the noise come from the staffs..Haha!!!Today staffs Syah, Fidaae(my adik), Wati, Alif, Syaza(My mei), Khai (AM) and I ..Haha..enviroment was happening at work man...So caos and hectic.We keep playing and so nosiy wassy..Haha..Hmm,Somehow I duno why I mood swing lah...Irritated easily and throw my temper anyhow lah..Very bad ah me..Then make my mei angry also..What the hell and what wrong with me..Haiz..Sorry mei..='( very sorry..

GOSH!!!Damn tired lah...Reached home ard 2am..Damn want to sleep but cant coz busy doing my project..Not project assignment..Haiz,so many things need to settle...My eyes clsoing soon.. Oh ya..Syah, Syawan and my girlfriend (Masliana) congrate ya going to upgrade to $4.20 staffs..Well done!!!=) so happy and proud of you guys..Well,got going already..Take carez.. Cheerz!!!=)

2006-05-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

Recently there's a new trainee working at J8 CBTL..His name is Adam..This year 21years old..ORD personel waiting to enter NUS..Ok,HE IS CUTE AND CHARMING!!!Well..I have a crush on him lah...Love by the first sight again..I told myself not to go to fast lah...Juz be close frends with him and noe him well..=) He very friendly lah and he is CUTE!!!His smile make me melt and he has a sweet look...If got chance I take his pic.Hehe...He asked for my number and we recently message too..Then he told Khai(Asst manager) if can his schedule put together with me and he want to work with me.Hehe...I happy sia.Hopefully we both have the same schedule and can work together..

Orite....report to work at 8am-4pm..Kinda sleeply and tired man...Working with changming(my hubby),Adam(my crush), Hayat and Agnes(OM)..GOSH!!!All guys lah..but than again Agnes like it and happy lah...Her fav mah...Rite Boss???Hehehe.... GREAT!!!Miss out opening staff at J8K. Then Agnes sent me up to J8K and open the store...Is like i work from 8am-10am at J8 and 10am-4pm J8K..Damn!!!!So unlucky sia but than good lah.. No one disturb me and i can be alone...=) OMG!!!WHAT THE HELL!!! The cakes in the cake fridge melt like hell....It looked GROSS and Ewww...!!!Smell stinck and smelly lah...I spent an half to wash and clean the shit lah!!!ARGH!!!WHAT A DAY!!!So unlucky..Tot can relax at J8K...End up have to do alot of things... =( Ok,sales was so bad and shopping mall was super quiet...Haiz!!!Then so surprise Adam came up for his break...Hehe.. We have fun chatting and spending time together..Not flirting ya..

Here's the picz of the melted cakes...

Log off work Agnes(OM) want to see and talk to me..Well, is about my promotion to part shift manager(PSM)...We have a long chatting session..Haha..Told me the stuffs and all the things when becum PSM..I'm happy I get promoted and at least I achieved something..=) Then Khai and Catherine talk to me too..Next month is my promotion test..At first I sad and don want to be PSM coz I don want to transfer out to other outlet coz J8 is where i belong and my family is here..Is like our bonding is there already than I cant bear to leave.(Esp Mas-->MY BEST BUDDY!!!)However now turn out to be my girlfriend...Hehe..=) Mas where are you???I miss you.. ='( So i cant bear to leave my Girlfriend.I know is sound ridiculous becoz of frends lah but than no worries lor.. Coz Big Boss allow and posted me to J8 with Agnes and also he let Agnes bring where I go coz he want me to follow up..=) Weee...Haha..

Ok...Meet my mei at outlet..She nv work today but she came down.So sweet rite..Happy to see my mei..Remind me of my ex mei who always fetch me home after work.Anyway,thnx ya mei to make an effort to come down..I appreciate it..=) Sorry if I make you get scolded or etc.Sorry ya..Ok,I was kinda down and sad when on the way home..Like I felt I being betray and cheated by my ex mei..Received msg frm my junior about her..Haiz..I cant forget it and trying to get rid from my head.I hope i able to recover the pain soon...And also I promise I won repeat my mistake again..I won let my frends and girlfriend down too..I hate my life!!!!ARGH!!!

2006-05-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

Last nite first time I slept so early at 12.45am..Haha!!!Normally my bedtime is at 3.00am.. Image I got school next day at 8am I still can sleep that late.Anyway,used to italready.Hehe...;p Today school start at 12pm-4pm..Today lesson is not that important..Coz going through our tutorial and do our individual module...Well,for me is juz continue doing my final project,folio and those dozen of assignment..Ok,new task for me..Need to do an artefact effect using computer like a 3D effect and some animation..Sound tough ya..Hopefully I can success..=)

Orite later working 4pm-12.30am(closing)...Hmm,wondering I able to report on time anot..Coz school end 4pm.Haha!!!Maybe reach work around 4.30pm???Or I able to reach on time if my lecturer release us early..=) Or during break I left early..Haha,I'm not skipping lesson ya..See lah if after break the lesson important anot..Today working with Aini(Asst manager),Syaza(my mei) and Aliff..Well,opefully we can finish closing early today and rest more..Hehehe..Hopefelly we able to hit target too..Then I make sure that Aliff don slack ah..Don really like to work with him coz he duno how to choose the right attitude during work and no sense of teamwork..Just think himself and esp closing do damn bloody slow lah..Is like when I working with some trainees,I'm the one close everything lor!!!What the hell lah...Where's your teamsipirt guyz!!!ARGH!!!

Ok,2 more days Uncle Sukhbir going off..He going KL for a game..Very sad leh..No uncle no fun..Miss all the fun and crapped..Uncle I going to miss you...Faster time fly fast and he come back fast..=) Anyway,I hope he enjoy and have fun.. Remember bring back of us something ya..Hehehe..

2006-05-22T14:02:00.000+08:00

In school rite now...Tired sia..School from 8am-4pm..Like working hours leh...=( Later still need to work from 5pm-12.30am(closing)...Argh!!! Boring!!!Well,today lesson was kinda boring.. Almost everyone going to fall asleep..Lecture all the way from 2hrs...Luckily lecture for 2hrs only..To the Lecturer is important lah but to the students is crapped..Ok,come to the exciting and interesting part!!!We start doing our designing and all that style..Haha!!! I LOVED IT!!! So fun and make me wake from my day dream...Haha!!!Went to our workshop and continue doing our artefact...GOSH!!!What a day!!!I forgot to bring my folio..Haiz..rush back home and take during break..=( Ok,during break my frends watching vcd I there doing my folio...

Later working at 5pm with Lionel(Part-shift Manager),Gan Jun,Wati and Fidaae(my adik).. Well,hope today can finish closing as soon as possible..I want to sleep and rest ah..Feel shagged man..Still need to do my folio and deisgn..Then my assignment and project keep coming in lah..What the hell!!!ARGH!!!Month of june is approaching.Haiz..Going to be busy lah..Ok,got going..Take carez..=)

2006-05-22T03:14:00.000+08:00

Ok..Well I duno why I suddenly have this weird feeling...About my ex-mei..Is like we break off on 2/3/05 few more weeks before her birthday...Kinda dissappointed and sad but I still have to accept it!Part of life and parcel..Ok,you guys might think and feel weird how come I suddenly blog about her rite...Well,I cant forget her and cant get rid of her from out of my mind...Is like stuck in my thick skull!!!DAMN IT ASSHOLE!!!

I kind down coz she don even treat me as her friends...Is like she treat me as a stranger or Best I don exist in the world.Haiz..When I received her message today,I kinda down and dissapointed.Why muz she do this to me...Yes!!!I did move on and be strong but I duno why when I suddenly think for her I start crying in my heart..Is like my heart the wound is totally in pain and hurt...I don want this to happened...Is very toturing...I want to forget her totally!!!Please I suffered enough from all this...Yes!!!!I KNOW I MAY LOOK STRONG BUT WHEN COME TO FRIENDSHIP/RELATONSHIP PROBLEMS OR EXAMPLE LIKE THIS,I VERY WEAK..Haiz..=(

Well,I just hope that I can forget her and be happy always...Before I end my message..."DEAR,I STILL CARE AND LOVE YOU ALTHOUGH YOU DID THIS TO ME.ANYWAY,TAKE CARE AND ALL THE BEST IN WHAT YOU DOING." Hope she drop by my blog and read all my enteries but I know she WON and is impossible..

2006-05-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11.30am...Need to go bugis and have a hair cut...Well suppose to meet Wati at 12pm but than she overslept so mei and I meet her at bugis instead...We meet her around 3pm lah and is damn ate lah coz three of us log in work at 4pm-12.30am(closing)...All of us were late for work coz I busy cutting and stye my hair...Haha...We report work at 4.30pm..Haha!!!Well I LOVED MY NEW HAIR STYLE!!! IT COOL AND STYLE LAH!!!Anyway,THNX ALOT WATI FOR BRINGING ME TO THAT HAIR STYLISH SHOP AND HELP ME WITH MY HAIR STYLE...=)

Well...today working with Catherine(Asst Manager),Wati,Syaza(mei) and I.. Working with them was fun and today kinda busy lah...Ok,when report to work Hafiz,Mas,Azim,Ridzman and Agnes(OM) was surprise to see me lah..Coz i changed my hairstyle...Haha!!!As usual..I very vain pod.Kept touching and adjusting my hair lah...LOL!!!They called me singapore Idiol.. Haha!!!Ok,i very vain lah..Haha,me and my hair!!!Hehe..Anyway,here are some picz I took..

Here's a pic when the hair dresser style and cutting my hair...=)

...Front View...

...SIDE VIEW...

...BACK VIEW...

MY BEST BUDDY(Mas) AND I...=) HEHE..SHE KISSED ME!!! >.<

2006-05-21T01:02:00.000+08:00

Orite woke up at 11.30am...Well,today planned supposed to meet up my frends at 11am to go escape theme park but than Rina cant make it so the whole outting was cock up and spoil..Mas(my buddy) and I went town for shopping.We went Little India coz Mas want to settle her stuffs..Well,we felt like tourist when at there.Hahaha....Then we went town and SHOP SHOP SHOP!!!HAHA!!!Mas shop on shoes...She bought alot sia...3 pairs..Then went Cineleisure to watch movie: Over The Hedge.The show was funny and nice to watch...Haha!!!Mei join us to watch the movie too...=) Well,overall outting was fun lah...Haha... Orite,Mas was totally gross and eww lah throughtout the outting...She keep burping and damn is LOUD lah...Haha!!!

LANGE!!!

...Lange and Syaza(Mei)...

After the movie end,Mas went home first coz the next day she working morning..So she need to have enough rest..So mei and I continue shopping at town...Haha!!!We went Heeren and shop...I bought a new pair of shoes at Limited Edition...Haha!!!So happy lah coz I admire and aim to buy that shoe since last month and now I get to buy it..=) But than kinda sad lah coz I didnt keep my promise and I keep spending...Have to save up man!!!

My best buddy!!!Masliana!!!

....LANGE AND MAS...

HERE IS MY NEW SHOES...

YEAH!!!HERE'S MY NEW SHOE...WEEE!!!

2006-05-20T02:45:00.000+08:00

Ok...today report to work at 7am-3pm(opening)...working with Agnes(OM),my mei and Hui Yun..Well kinda busy today and my mei was not in the mood...Her stomach pain in the morning and she was not in the mood too..So poor thing...Kinda tired at work today coz 3 days straight kept doing opening...Log off at 3pm..Went home and get ready to meet up my NCC Family at 5pm,city hall...

Haha...As usual we were late late and the family were late too...Haha...Uncle,Ridzman and I wait of the rest at raffles city starhubs..Then Amadeed,Fidaae and Azim came.We hang out awhile at starhub..Then we made a move to marina square..Have our dinner together...Tasha and Sadrina join us later coz they from bugis...When shopping after that...Haha!!! I bought a jacket and jeans. So happy... =) But than i spent again...Yeah!!! Hit the pool...!!!Went marina square pool...We play for 1hr..Azim,Rizdman,Tasha and Sadrina went merlion to torn while Uncle,Fidaae and I went home...Well,is a great outting..Miss you guys...=)

HERE ARE SOME OF THE DRINKS...WANT SOME???HEHEHE...

2006-05-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 6am which is damn early lah for work...Working 7am-4pm..Rmb my secondary sch times..Used to wake up at this time to go sch...Suddenly miss my secondary sch moments.. Wish i can be in secondary again..Haiz..Miss the fun and happy moments..

Ok,today only 2 staffs..myself and mei working with Lionel (Asst Manager)..Like WHAT THE HELL!!!Two staffs all the way till 4pm..Luckily not that busy..If busy I duno what to say..Maybe I will FUCK and throw my temper anyhow to whoever..!!!ARGH!!!!!!!I supposed to end work at 3pm one leh!!!But than extend till 4pm coz once I leave no staff go in and left my mei and Lionel. Like cant bear ah to see them suffer..Anyway,woking wif my mei today was fun..HAHA!!!Keep playing and fooling around..Play with ice..Haha!!!!Then I sometime see my mei scared ah..Coz she mood swing like that..Scared to approach when she piss off espically..=/ Later I oso kena from her..See her so poor thing ah like got a lot of probs and etc ah...I oso duno what to do and duno how to help oso.I trying to understand her and slowly from there lah.

GREAT!!!Closing people was late..Aini(Asst manager) came work gave black face..Fuck off lah!!! Then do come to work lah.Bring yr probs to work for what!!!Stupid Moron!!!Wati didnt turn up fpr work coz got some urgent matter..Ok,understandable..Then Zak as usual late..All she Know is LATE!LATE!LATE!Simple things oso cant follow and do it..Haiz,no sense of discipline and responsibility!Hayat actually don want to come work coz Agnes working closing.Then Agnes(OM) closing manager..Ok,she another BITCH!!!Happy Happy asked me work till 6pm.Think what I'm your dog is it..!!!Hello...I work from opening till 4pm leh..Is good enuf I want to stay till 4pm if not I can jz punch out at 3pm lor..Sometimes,when we treat people nice and good,they intend to step over our head and alwyas think we will give in to them..EXCUSE ME YA,I'M NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON EASILY GET BULLIED OR PUSH AROUND!!!YOU GET THE WRONG PERSON!!!Oklah,I quarrled wif Agnes lah and I won the battle..Haha!!!But than again I still respect her as my OM lah..I pity my mei leh...She supposed to end at 4pm but Agnes don let her off and asked her to stay awhile..Wah,her AWHILE hor is 1hr30min lor...I waited for mei till I fall aslep sia..Haiz,I juz wish Agnes is like other manager who is relax,fun and sporty type lah but dispicline and standard must be there..Haha..Yawn,so sleeply..Haha,Take carez..Cheerz!=)

2006-05-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

YAWN!!!DAMN Sleep and tired..Slept kinda late this few days coz busying preparing for my exam and work up damn early for work..Haiz...Well,supposed to wake up at 7.15am today to study but than too damn tired and woke up at 8am to study..Today paper start at 10am-12.10pm..oK,don feel like wake up ah...Want to sleep but cant got to report to school..

The paper was easy but than I screwed up the paper!!!What the hell!!!Is like i got study some I forget the ans and some of the question I mix up with and confused..I know the answer just that I had no confident whether that the answer is for that question anot..Damn!!!Loss a lot of marks ah..Aim to get A or B+..But than seem like my wish won come thru..Haiz,just not my luck i guess.Anyway,I hope i did well for this paper coz one of my fav sub and want to make my parents and uncle sukhbir happy..I don want to make them down and dissapoint them..I just hope everything will turn well..

Ok,paper end..Have to report for lesson at 1pm-4pm..Well,just a short lesson.Lesson was fun today..Haha..learn more new interesting and creative invention..Haha!!!Cool...Kinda sleeply in the class..Almost going to fall asleep..Luckily my frends keep me awake and crapped alot.Haha!!! Later at 5pm-12.30am(closing) need to report to work...Hopefully today closing fun and able to close the store early coz i want to rest..

Great..I having a bad cough rite now and my voice totally change lah..So like rock and I myself cant hear what i toking sometimes lah..Haha..damn sad cant tok so much lor coz vy difficult to talk ah..My frends keep disturbing and making fun of my voice..Haha!!!Teasing all the time..Esp my poly frends and Mas(my buddy).Haha..working with Mas yesterday was fun and happening..Haha..i miss working with her and i just miss her lah..I oso duno y..maybe the crazy part..Ok,she keep making fun and disturb me together with catherine(Asst manager)..And Cat called me GAY!!!Haha..I still rmb what Mas said to me.."A male voice trapped a female body".. Hahahaha....Then for my mei,she like my voice so much..She admire my voice and record it..Haha..And I like a fool lah duno she recording my voice..see being bully again..Hehe..Funny lah she..Weird but nvm lah coz she is weird too..Hehe..Well,got going already..Take carez..Cheerz!=)

2006-05-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

DAMN!!!!BUSY AND TIRING MOMENT!!!Recently very busy with my work and preparing for my exam...Err,ok..this time round i not fully 100% well prepared..Only 80% is well prepared.. Another 20% busy playing and slacking around...So far got confident can pass but not so high expectation..Don think can get A or higher distincstion/distinction..Maybe just B/C or credit/ pass..Orite aft june onwards will be a very busy,tidious and challenging period for me...Loaded with assignments,artefacts and projects..Haiz..Now still can relax and chilled around..Play all that when aft june have to start to be serious and play less..

Work!Work!Work!Ok,i always work.Well,need money to settle some family stuffs and my coursework..Doesn't mean I work alot I neglect my studies..I didnt.. Although I keep working,I still got study and went to school..Just that have to be smart in managing time well and be more discipline..Ok,my hubby hospitalist..And I have to work more days and covered so of the days for him...Is like i very pity and sad for him..I just hope he get well soon and everthing is orite..Hmm,I used to have a happy family and healthy family but now is turn up to be disaster and my siblings giving alot of problems...Haiz..what is happening!!!

Today no school coz public holiday...aS usual work and work..Earn money and double pay today..Weee...Very busy at work..Customers kinda irritating and no sense of respect and basic manner..What the hell!!!All so impatient!!!So rude!!!Ok,log off work followed mei went to Marina Square collect her jeans and hang out awhile...Then meet my Ncc family kinda late..Well,sorry guys didnt join you guys at the early part coz I have my plans already..Hope u guys understand.. The members was around were Sukhbir,Ridzman,Tasha and Azim..Well,my mei came along too for my family gathering..Just giving her a warm welcome and introduce my family member to her...Make frends..=) Well,got going..take care..=)

2006-05-08T16:04:00.000+08:00

Yawn!!!Back to school again...from 10am-3pm...Wah,lazy to go school sia...Feel like slacking in my bed...But than agian I dragged my whole body off from the bed..Ok,lesson very boring ah... Lecture,do tutorial and exploration of ideas..but exploration of ideas still not bad sia...Haha...Ok,having lesson I still can online and serving the netz...My frends as usual keep playing games and all that stuffs..However,I still did pay attention ya..I still take down notes and so those tutorial lor...See good rite..Whaha..

Damn later got work...Haiz..Supposed to start 5pm-12.30am (closing)...But I report work late again coz lesson suddenly end 4.30pm instead of 3pm..Damn!!!What the hell!!!!I don fell like working sia...I just feel like going out and play...Have fun and hang out with my frends..But than again,i still have to report to work ah..I try find replacment but cant get..Message agnes(om) she said cannot lah...Have to come work coz attachment manager and she told me come slightly late..Ok,sad when heard that but nvm lah...In life is always like that and used to it too..So i just complaining to make myself feel better..Ok,gt going..Take carez..=)

2006-05-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

Ok..I'm back!!!Haha...so happy back singapore..Miss my bed,pillow,computer,my frends and my room..Whaha!!!When holiday to Tanjong Pinang 2 days 1 nite..Outting was neutral lah...But if go wif frends more fun lah...Family nuthing much can do ah...Cant play like crazy or go wild..Haha!!!Wow!!!Heaven mah..Get to shop shop shop!!!Shopping paradise...I spent a lot lah still broke..=/ Bought belts, jeans and jackets...If can want to buy more but Not enuf cash ah..So just see lor.. Eyes pain ah..Hahaha!!!Enjoy eating there..As usual I like to eat..Esp the Seafood..YUM YUM!!!Haha...Heaven again..Haha!!!

But than again,i was angry wif my parents..Coz they keep barking and make the outting spoil esp MY DAD!!!Before we went out of house,I get scolded like hell coz I woke up late and all of them prepared and ready to leave the house..Is like HELLO!!!! What time they wake me up lah..They wake me up at 7am and the ferry is at 10.30pm lah..Then my sis oso another one..Wake me up jz to lend jacket from me..Not wake me up to get ready!!!Argh!!Is like I noe my fault lah for sleeping late at nite and didnt set my own alarm clock..Coz my mum told me,she will wake me up or my sis lor..Damn they saboh me sia..The last day at Tanjong Pinang I left my wallet at the lobby lah..When waiting for ferry my mum like nagging lah..Is like they nv target my sisters lah..I always will be their target board!!!What the HELL!!!Ok,i admit i vy careless and forgetful ok...Luckly my wallet nv lost..If lost sad man..Have to take out money to make ic and all that..Then again I get scolded like siao from my dad..Haiz..suai ah..

Back singapore lor at 6.30pm...Well,suppose to meet at at TM @ 6.30pm lah but I was damn bloody late...Guess she mad and cant tolerant with me..Anyway,sorry baby...=) ok,great!!!Damn crowded lah and human traffic sia @ TM...WHAT THE HELL!!!Haha...hate it man than wif my big bag somemore..Keep hitting her till she get irritated..Haha..then keep making fun and disturb her till she like cant stand it...Nah,i juz like to play around with my mei..Rite baby???Haha...Yeah...Then we go hit the pool...Haha..As usual jie always win..Hehe..but than she improved a lot lah...Great!!!Keep it up!!!=) one day you sure can beat me...=) Ok,play till 11plus like than..Then send her home...Paris ris to yio chu kang..Wah...far sia...Haha..no bus and train take taxi go home lor..oK,chat on fone with my baby till 4am and i doze off lor..Hehe..sorry ya..Then have to wake up @ 9am for school lor...Sian..Haha!!!

2006-05-06T04:05:00.000+08:00

Orite...supposed to start work at 5pm but I came in at 5.30pm...Coz school end late..Lecturer dragged the timing..Frankly speaking I don feel like going to work sia...Coz body suddenly feel very tired and just want to slack in my bed..Haha!!!But than again,when in work,my tired gone..Haha..don feel tired or shagged also..Is like i cant make myself so free or what coz I intend to become lazy and slack alot..Ok,rush home..Chop Chop get ready to work..

Ok,today at work was fun and as usual keep playing non stop lah...Me and my non sense plus my crapped lah..Haha..Very busy today...Customers so rude and cant wait till Aini(Asst manager) get piss off and angry..Coz of the customers,We kena from her..WHAT THE HELL!!! Spoil our fun moment sia..Well,today syafiq(small boy) make me piss off and angry.He think he knows everything like that and order people around..Think he what..BIG FUCK IS IT!!!Hey..wake up lah dey!!!Look at yourself first..Before acting or saying it out..You know is F**king irritating and annoying pets!!! I can be good as your frend,sister or even family but come to work..I sorry ya..I just hate his attitude in work..Simple things cant do..worst still order his own batch..No shame ah..Haiz..Idiot!Then so hurry for what...Relax ah..act professionally in work lah...Very sad wif his attitude.. Well,i don care he read or whoever tell him..I just what him to wake up his bloody mind lah..Thk lah and behave maturely not a kid!!!I just hope he can he like his owe attitude in the past..Just want him to change coz i care for him as he is part of our family.

Haha...I love scrabbing and washing the floor..Haha..can play water and got freedom out there..Well,mei and I was washing the floor and at the same time we play with water..DAMN IT!!! I was totally wet lah..My apron and pants was damn bloody wet and she not totally wet like me..Nvm..One day I will pay her back..Whaha!!!=) Hehe..

Ok,GREAT!!!Today was my unlucky day...Firstly,my fav contact lens tore on the way home in the van...Haiz..i damn sad sia..Well,was not totally azim fault lah..He wanted to pass the hp to me than accidentally kena my eyes than the contact lens came off..At first i was angry and piss off..I took gd care of it and this my 2nd time replc it..So see how precious is that to me..But than again I was not angry wif him at all..Haha!!!He have to buy a new set of contact lens for me..I don care!!! I WANT!!! I VERY DEMANDING..!!!HAHA!!!

Next the driver refused to dropped me at the carpark..Dropped me at my home busstop and make me walk all the way to my house life..Damn far sia..Very rude sia..Cant wait like that..Idiot!!!Cant wait don send us home lah or better still don work!!! Idiotic moron!!!

Lastly..oK,I FELT SO STUPID AND ANGRY OF MYSELF!!!Coz i forgot to take off my mp3 from my pants and I soka it in the pail..GREAT!!!!My mp3 wet and now gone crazy!!!ARGH!!! Simple things oso cant remember!!!What's wrong with me!!!What the hell!!!I bloody piss off and can feel my temper boiling...Haiz..I just hope my mp3 still able to play if cant think have to get a new one and take out money again!!!DAMN IT!!!ARGH!!!

2006-05-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm...Now in school.Miss my gang(Patrick,Victor,Edward,Amalina,Fiona,Daniel and Reuben)... I don miss the school but I miss my frends..Whaha!!!Orite.. Out of 5days,i went school 1 day.. Haha..You may think I'm bad or a slacker..Nah,coz only today got lesson and the rest of the day just go down workshop do folio and artefact..So i didnt went school lah coz I already completed most my work..=) Lesson was fun and the class like in the mess..Haha!!!Daniel and Patrick do the gay motion...Ewww..want to vomit sia..Haha!!!Both of you suit to be gay..Haha!!!Jz kidding.. Orite,a lot of upcoming projects and assignment..Haiz..as usual projects and assignment won stop coming in..Alot of things need to do..Argh!!!

Well..later at 5pm till 1.30am(closing) got work...Man,I don feel like going to work coz want to go out with my frends and play with them..They going town later and hit the snooker and watch movie..I want to go!!!Haha..cant ah..got work..Well,go work oso can play..coz today the closers staffs oso very fun..Got Aini(Asst manager),Zakiah,Azim(my bro) and Syaza(my mei)..But i thk won be totally fun till the max lah..If Mas(my buddy),changmeng(my hubby) and Hui yun is around..WOW!!!ROX man!!!HAHA!!!Hmm,long time nv work wif my buddy..Miss her man..esp her clumsy part when she got angry..Haha!!!SOTONG!!!

This week,I kept going out and play only..Haha..duno why oso..I just miss my childhood i guess.. Hehe..Just miss the fun and all the happy moments with my frends..Esp my Ncc family..I miss you ppl ah..Miss hang out and torning together..Ok,got going..Take carez..=)

2006-04-30T04:08:00.000+08:00

Orite...woke up at 12pm..Haha!!!Late?Nah..orite lah.Kinda sad and miss the fun for not joining my family went downtown east and having fun...Coz working closing from 5pm-1.30am.. Anyway,is a last min family outting plan so I didnt change my schedule coz alot of the staffs cant work..However, I happy too coz can rest and have a peace of mind..HAHAHA!!! I like to be alone at home..So queit and No one control me..Whaha!!!

YEAH!!!As usaul slacking on my bed and studying..haha!!!So relax but tired ah study..Haiz,bad thing is that I was sick lah but luckily today feel much better..=) Not as bad as yesterday... HAHA!!! Then at 5pm report to work..WOW!!!Damn busy sia today but never feel tired leh...Today stock take too so more busy..Haha..Today at work was fun...Is like didnt know during Agnes(OM) and Catherine(AM) can play around but not too the max lah..But is better to behave during Agnes shift..HAHA!!!people working with me is wan,wati , my hubby and syaza..Then my hubby hor was late for work lah..He cant down to do the stock take..Haha..crazy man we all but not as crazy and happening working with my gang..Working with them fun lah but I still prefer working with the people in the past..HAHA!!!More rox and happening.

Haiz..I feel so bad sia..Coz i made my mei angry..Well,i didnt mean it and didnt noe it happened too..Well,i didnt lie either..Is just a missundestanding and she was totally piss off and didnt bother to tok to me..So i oso cant do anything and I just kept quiet..Like what I said I always fail to cheer her up or make her happy..I just hope things will settle down and solve it out..Message her didnt reply and she just reply one of my message..Ok,so what can I do?Well,just have to appect it..Give in and take..Oklah got going..Take carez..Cheerz! =)

2006-04-29T03:40:00.000+08:00

Well,supposed to report to school for a short lecture lah from 7pm-8pm but than I was too tired and lazy to go..Not that important too..Furthermore just finish from work at 5pm..Actually Fri no school one leh than suddenly the lecture postpoe to fri lor..Haiz..

I was down by flu and kept sneezing non stop during work..My body was weak and I feel that I getting sick soon...But than I just ignore and carry on with my work..Then happened morning was damn busy..Kinda piss off lah Agnes(OM) asked me to do gourment coz damn busy..Is like i kept sneezing and all that..But I juz do lah..Lazy to tok back and care too...Just do my work.. Then Mas(my buddy) came in work at 5pm @ J8K..Well,she shoot me with alot of ques and I know she showing her concern and care towards me..Thnx buddy..I really appreciate it and love you man..=) But I just hope you give me a chance to explain and give in to me..Sorry didnt stay and accompy u awhile at J8K.Then supposed to meet uncle and join my ncc family for dinner and torn but I was not feeling well and got a bad flu..So i didnt meet them up..

I feel sad and pity to see my mei was totally down and she was totally in the mess..I wish I could help her solve and cheer her up but I always failed to do so..Maybe I don really understand her character fully yet as I just know her not long ago..Maybe now I have to start understand and know her personality and character..Well,it takes time but I will try..I just wish to see her happy and don feel upset about the past..I know is difficult to forget about it and take time to recover but than still have to be strong and move on..Mei,if u feel down and got problem,please do approach jie ya..I will lend you my ears and will cheer up plus make you happy ya..=)

2006-04-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

Yawn...tired man!!!Woke up at 7.30am..Report to school at 8am TILL 4pm..Lesson was totally dull and boring lah...But still have to pay attention coz that a student job...Then self study and do my own revision...Hmm...very stress ah study..haha..don like to study but still have to study..Man...DAMN IT!!!Then middle of my lesson agnes(OM) message me..Asking me to represent Olymipc Barista..WHAT THE HELL!!!MY HUBBY SABO ME...!!!Idiot!!!Haha...well,I'm interested but I afraid that I unable to committe it and back out at last min so to play safe,I asked Kelly(My hubby mistress) to replace me..Hehe..At least I nv sabo her..I called her before message Agnes.

Orite supposed to meet mas(my buddy) at NYP mac lah at 4pm.. Meet to chat and gossip..Haha..As usual lah..Girls..Haha!!!Then tot of doing project and study together...But was cancel coz at fisrt got workshop..But then last min the workshop was cancel... Wee...so happy..Haha!!!!Then when out with Syaza(my mei mei)..Haha..Go hit the Pool..Haha... so sad I keep winning.. Haha..mei mei try harder nxt time ya...Hehe..Well,having fun playing pool and nice game mei...=) Hope to play with you again ya..Cheerz!!!

GUESS WHO'S BACK!!!!

FARAH SARA LANGE!!!HAHA...Orite got going..Need to study...Take carez!!!Cheerz!=)

2006-04-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

DAMN!!!!Super tired and shagged man!!!Have not enjoy my holidays and not enough rest.Well, my life is so busy...As usual 24hrs busy..Orite,working is so tiring...Then schooling is so tiring and boring man especially when come to study but what to do that is a job for a student..Orite, have to work at Ngee Ann City 10am-5pm (sat)..Attached there coz not enough staff..Then report back to J8 @ 6pm-1.30am(closing)..GOSH!!! Is a full shift lah..Damn tired and esp closing super tired and I almost close everything coz the closers are trainees..Help and guide them.

Working with Agnes(OM)..Well,I knew she was angry and piss off during closing..She threw her temper and showed black face to us..I just tried my best to close asap and rush myself up..Speed up my closing and help the trainees to close their station.Is was juz not my luck I guess..Wasnt luck on that day..Sorry if the store was not clean espcially the service part..Damn sorry.. Reached home knock off..then woke up at 12pm meet my frends up and do project..Then about 4pm I went home coz very tired and need a break..

Here a pic of a HUGE DOG..Well in the pic don't looked huge but when real image is DAMN HUGE!!!

2006-04-21T08:09:00.000+08:00

GOSH!!!Woke up at 10am and I miss my fisrt lecture at 10am..Damn!!!Haiz..But nvm..Lecture for 1hr only...So its ok..Haha..Get off from my bed and slowly prepare and get ready to go school..Cant belive it i took my time and when I reached my class all my frends like playing and relax..No lecturer oso..Then half of the people in the class gone..I was totally lost lah coz I duno what's happening..Haha!!!Asked Fiona she said that lesson haven start yet coz lecturer haven come..Haha..Crapped..It was not a waste for me to take my owe sweet time to get ready myself to go school.

Great!!!5min after I came in the lecturer came in..Haha!!!Is like half of the people skip the lesson..Haha..Bad sia they all...Well,my gang and I ,we don intend to skip oso..As we miss each other and long time never hang out..So school is the time we can hang out and have fun..Haha!!!Ok,lesson was not boring..Fun and happening..Well,today supposed to report AMQ camp at 3pm for my S/CLT certificate presentation but i nv go coz sch hours..Haha..oK,school end at 4pm...Weee..So happy.. Well,supposed to stay till 6pm to help my Daniel and Amalina with their artefact and Folio..But than both of them got smt on..So cancel..So just hang out awhile with Patrick,victor,Fiona and edward in the workshop..Then after that went home and continue studying..Like no life man..Haha..